Glow Lanterns and Deep Conversations.
Okay so this is my first post and I’m not really sure how this works so pardon me if there’s no flow in what I write xD
Well, 11th grade has been quite an eventful year. People begin to feel new things, do new things and say new things. I’ve experienced things, good and bad, that were once so alien to me. Sometimes, I let my thoughts wander and I begin to feel bad about things which really are not worth feeling bad about. But it’s the little things that make me feel okay again.
So last night, I went out with a group of friends who are in college. It was of my best friend’s boyfriend’s birthday. We bought glow lanterns. Okay so if you don’t know what glow lanterns are, they’re basically these lanterns you light up, release them and let it float away. So we went to his terrace and lit these lanterns and released them. As I watched them disappear I realised how damn lucky I was to see something so beautiful. I don’t know what it is about lights that make me so happy :)
Later that night, we went out for dinner in this really posh restaurant. I was talking to a friend. I’ve spoken to him a couple of times but it’s always been a surface conversation. Last night though, he asked me what I’d like in a guy, whether I’d want a guy who I’d be able to have intellectual and deep conversations with or a guy who’s frivolous and carefree, considering I’d having equal amounts of fun with both of them. I chose the former. When I asked him the same, he told me he wants a girl who he can have deep intellectual conversations with, conversations that make you widen your thoughts and have a greater realisation on life. Not all the time, but yeah. He thought want he wanted was weird, but I feel him. It’s not about going on fancy expensive dates or clubbing, but about the little things. Little things like looking at the stars or watching glow lanterns in the sky. He told me this quote from Pulp Fiction where Uma Thurman says something along the lines of “why would we talk when we can just enjoy each other’s silence?” That really got me. It’s not always about words, but sometimes, it’s about being comfortable with the other person’s silence and moreover, being content with it. I know now, that there are other people (which includes guys xP) who want the same thing as me. I highly doubt I’ll find it anytime soon, but I’m not settling for anything less that that.
