💚: how does my muse feel about love? about falling in love? about being in love? AND 💛: does my muse believe in love-at-first-sight? in soulmates? in fate? (for Iyddreh and/or Vikki owo)
I shall do both of 'em because they're both loud this evening.
💚 Iyddreh: She DOES like love, and being in love, and falling in love! even in spite of the survivors'-guilt-born creeping anxiety that her brain likes to conjure up! Even when she's CONVINCED 99% OF THE WAY that she's a complete curse and a karmic plantar wart and etc. etc. etc. (her mind is as creative with her insults for her as it is with insults for others) she can haul that fear back with: "If I wasn't supposed to love then I wouldn't." All of her partners know her past; she's very matter-of-fact about the shit she pulled, and stubborn about not pulling it again, and open about everything. She DID try to kind of sidle away from Dell once post-Carteneau when they were reconnecting, but Dell just said, "Look, we both want to be in love, and we are in love, and we want to keep doing the thing; if it all goes to fuck again, then we'll fix it."
💚 Vikki: Very similar to Iyddreh, but with much less trepidation. XD Vikki is sentimental and open-hearted and loves all kinds of love, imperfections and all. If love changes shape, that's cool--it still remains! if love fades, that's okay--she has the memories. It took her a long while to come to this point (and a lot of literal divine aid; she and Jherr's past incarnation was...let's say A ROUGH ROAD to the point that significant sacred intervention was required to unfuck things properly), but now that she's here, she's comfy? Losing love will always sting some, and unrequited love is always bittersweet...but if she hadn't taken any risks in her PRIOR life, she wouldn't have THIS one. So she'll love without fear.
💛 Iyddreh: Yes, mostly? She believes in lust at first sight, for sure. Íde of the Thirteenth fell ass-over-teakettle for Ferdiad; Iyddreh Lycopersica of Mhach walked into a door the first time she saw Cessair Blackwing, and then centuries later fell into a pond when she first set eyes on Adellinde Eoghan. All of these people are people she later did fall in love with as she was dear friends with them! She doesn't want to call things "love" until she's really certain--there's that "oh don't say it until you know, don't up and JINX IT you pigeony bastard*" self-critical voice in her head a lot. The tl;dr of it is "sort of, friendship and attraction are the foundation".
💛 Vikki: Kind of optimistically agnostic about it! She doesn't DISBELIEVE it's a thing. She's never experienced it herself, but she doesn't doubt it can happen. She's been told it happened with other people regarding her, and that makes her blush and flail around some because she's aware that first impressions of her can be in the "MA! THERE'S A WEIRD CAT OUTSIDE!" line of experience. She definitely believes in ATTRACTION at first sight (and that’s a potential beginning point of love for sure), and doesn't doubt others' immediate-heartmark experiences! It's just not a thing she's personally familiar with--so it's kind of like like bungee jumping, or feeling capsaicin! (Neither Jherr nor Vikki can be affected very much by billionty-eleven scoville unit peppers. They get a tingle, but not a burn. it makes them a little sad. :C)
(* “pigeony bastard” became her snark at herself because someone once compared her to a homing pigeon. Her sense of direction is impeccable, and she DOES kind of tend to scare people in abandoned buildings and perch in rafters. So. XD)
