CW: brief mentions of poison and abuse
When I told my brother that I was christopagan and occasionally going to Quaker silent worships, he told me to be careful. And from an objective standpoint, I understand why. Our father grew up in the bad sort of Catholicism. My maternal grandfather abandoned his wife and toddler daughters for a cult that poisoned literal hundreds of people (no deaths). I try to joke about it but this man whom I have never met was legitimately part of a cult that poisoned hundreds of people.
It genuinely is a huge fear of mine that I'll end up in a cult. It feels nearly inevitable, like it's a curse on my bloodline. I've had nightmares about this. Even my hope of someday being an ordained minister, hand-fasting inter-faith couples, feels dangerous. Like any drop of organized religion will have the same effect: becoming part of a cult. (This is an effect of anti-theist beliefs on children, by the way.)
But the thing about cults is that they control information. Control what people read and see, control what they think, control what they do. The phrase "knowledge is power" is simply true. This occurs in many places, not just religion; cults can form basically anywhere.
Cults control information. So I, as a self-studying scholar, am doing the exact opposite of any sort of cult activities. So it feels quite silly that my brother would tell me to be careful when going to Quaker silent worship when he's seen my collection of academic texts. Not even sermons; the silent worships, where we all sit in a circle and meditate and sometimes someone says something. And if you know anything about Quakers, you know that they have generally a good reputation.
I think, as long as someone is willing to pick up a book, learn from someone new, be uncomfortable and confused and even scared for a bit, they'll be less susceptible to cult tactics. Of course, "you are not immune to propaganda", but damn can we fight it just by being curious.