#goalsprogress

[ebuhlyn]

12.22.17

dragged my butt out to go see christmas in the park with some friends today. i’m pretty proud of myself for gathering up the courage to meet up with some old friends, seeing as how i usually get extremely anxious/feel really tired after socializing for too long.  i did feel my anxiety creepin in but i managed to keep myself (somewhat) present/in the moment. there were some times where i felt that nobody wanted me there, but that’s really just me trying to psych myself out. just gotta remind myself that i am loved and wanted. 

i really feel like i handled my anxiety well today. baby steps.

also, it was really nice seeing old faces :) 

[ebuhlyn]

its ok not to have everything figured out. 

[ebuhlyn]

12.19.17

i feel like i always have this tendency to try (or want to try) to fix people in my life. like i have the ability to point people in the “right direction” and suddenly their lives will be magical and wonderful. end of story. 

idk where this tendency comes from. is it because im cocky as hell and value my own opinion maybe a little too much? or maybe i have a crippling fear of being helpless/useless.

either way, its time for me to acknowledge that some problems are unfixable. maybe the best way to deal with the hurt problems cause is not fixing the situation, but accepting that the world comes with its fair share triumphs and error. 

i should still continue to give people unconditional love (if toxic, cut that shit out), take these problems as a learning opportunity, and move on with my life.

[ebuhlyn]

12.18.17

made a new account bc i need a positive and encouraging tumblr feed. 

some goals that I have set for the rest of december and the following new year. 

1. apply for creative internships/jobs bc your girl’s about to graduate. (3 per day to be exact)

2. start prepping for next year’s grad school apps.

3. build my knowledge (currently reading an art history book, learning more about recent events, and trying to learn more ps  and java)

4. be more self-loving and confident. cus nobody will love me if i don’t love myself. :,^) 

5. be better at keeping in contact with frens

6. be a more happy individual.

trying to make these goals something that i consistently work on these goals. yes.. that’s what i need, consistency.

[happyhealthycurvy-blog]

I can touch my toes!

I've always been super not flexible, and have never been able to touch my does before.  But today while doing some Tara Stiles yoga, I did a forward bend with my legs straight and managed to touch my fingertips to the ground!  It wasn't effortless and I couldn't hold it for long, but it's still progress!

Yaaay!