#godspouse things

[paracawsal]

*sigh*

I want to go upstairs and sit at Her altar and meditate

but

Im lying here feeling Her presence and also feeling less in pain and very cozy because of it.

Anyway I just feel like I haven’t been doing enough as a devotee recently but I guess she’d let me know right? 🤷🏻‍♀️ maybe I’m just guilting myself for being lazy when I know for a fact that she would make herself scarce if she didn’t want me lying here, resting with her. I know I can’t give from an empty cup. Maybe that’s the lesson, here.

Edit: It’s humira day and I forgot 🙃 no wonder

[strange-lights-and-stardust]

An anniversary (of the type you first think of)

Today’s my wedding anniversary with Gwyn. We actually have two dates we celebrate: Halloween / Nos Galan Gaeaf, when the vows and ceremony t

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Secret Valentine

I’ve been waiting a long time to share this song. I wrote it on February 15th of last year (and recorded it soon after), to express my sadness that I felt afraid to tell people about my roman…

Shoutout to @religionismyfandom for inspiring this song via this poem.

I’ve been waiting ten years almost a year to post this.

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Things I look for in a man:

1. Being Gwyn ap Nudd

That’s it, that’s the requirement

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So when I said Gwyn’s such a Dad...

(picrew here)

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Please do heed the content warning (which I’ll give further down), as I was wrestling with some difficult feelings for this song. But first, a lighter note. One year ago today, Gwyn asked me …

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Current “this gives me Gwyn vibes” song. Especially after Calan Mai.

Deep down in the dark Loving you six feet underground Eternal love I'm loving you six feet underground

[starsong-dragonheart]

And as my head begins spin, as I watch the world go mad, as my heart begins to race and my breath to harshen, there He is - my anchor, my safe port in the storm, my still point at the center of the madness, my hearthfire welcoming me home. I feel my Beloved's arms wrap around me: "Let me catch you."

I think I'll let Him carry me to bed.