Can you do some dazai osamu head-canons? Where the reader gets anxiety from yelling because her parents argue often around her?
hi sweetheart, sorry for the delay! hope this helps and comforts you. kind reminder that it gets better and i believe in you!! ♡♡♡
— 𝐃𝐀𝐙𝐀𝐈 𝐎𝐒𝐀𝐌𝐔 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 𝐀 𝐒/𝐎 𝐖𝐇𝐎 𝐆𝐄𝐓𝐒 𝐀𝐍𝐗𝐈𝐎𝐔𝐒
warnings: fem!reader, fluff, quite angsty here and there, mentions of emotionally abusive parents/household, COMFORT
we all know dazai is on the louder side
that's just how he normally behaves
and you don't really mind it, since it's quite endearing to see him so upbeat all the time
because god help whenever he's feeling sad, since it takes a pretty big toll on you as well
however, after a certain incident took place, you two realised that you needed to sit down and talk
and so you told dazai everything about how your life used to be while under your parents' roof
including the continuous screaming matches between your old folks, resulting in doors being slammed and cries of frustration being heard
dazai stayed silent, listening intently to every word you said, letting you talk at your own pace (since he was aware that it took some guts to go through it all again while trying to express it through words)
after you finished, he patted his chest for you to lean on, and you did so without hesitation
as soon as you got comfortable, he started raking his lithe fingers through your hair and rubbing your back soothingly
"belladona, you have no idea how much i appreciate that you told me."
you got up to lean on your elbow, looking at him with big eyes
god help me if i won't kiss her breathless was his only thought as he watched you tracing patterns with your warm fingers over his face
"you don't have to change, though."
he giggled at the slightly concerned look on your face and leaned over to kiss your nose
"i'm not changing anything, love. i'm just... accommodating to your needs more, that's all <3"
ever since that discussion took place, he started keeping things more calm and collected
he even stopped annoying the others on purpose, hoping that it would limit the yelling to a bare minimum whenever you were around
kunikida was so freaked out lmao
and atsushi was just relieved
it even extended to his occasional interactions with chūya
"please, you moron, stop it with the screaming. you're making my girlfriend uncomfortable."
the look he gave dazai sent chills down your spine
but when he turned to you he bowed his head in apology (we stan a respectful king 😤😤)
however, not all cases were in your favor
sometimes, it couldn't be prevented and a screaming match would ensue
in those moments, dazai would make his presence known with gentle touches along your face and arms
and he would always be behind you, head dipping down to kiss your shoulder mindlessly from time to time, fingers coming up to stroke your cheek softly
not to mention that when the two of you would get home he'd make it his life's purpose to tackle you down and shower your face in kisses, making you dizzy with affection
he just wants to help you forget about the previous hours that's all 🤧🤧🤧
oh and don't you even try to thank him for this
he's instantly gonna answer with a classic "well, we could be even if we jumped–"
"end that sentence and i'm not feeding you for a week."
he would just laugh and lean on the counter, looking at you endearingly
"i just hope you know that you shouldn't thank me for being a good boyfriend and taking your feelings into consideration," he finally says. "that's what everyone should do, regardless of their feelings towards you, belladonna. you're not being a nuisance, and you aren't being irrational. your background is not exactly a happy one by far, so i'm just trying to make sure that the current situation makes up for it all." he's now approaching you, cupping your cheek in his warm palm. "and, trust me, knowing you're feeling safe and content here with me is the biggest reward i could ever wish for."
you were left speechless
osamu dazai, a man of many words and actions. the guy that never ceased to surprise. my guy, you thought sheepishly.
