#goodbye edmonton

[neoncat669]

Top 10 things to do in Edmonton

1. Leave

[moldbegone]

Tomorrow's the day

[somecrazydiamond]

Though they'll never see this (and that's the beauty of a secret Tumblr account):

I'm sorry for when I went to France and flirted with that one guy in my class, even though I was soon to be coming back home to you. I'm sorry for the horrid names I called you, which you (almost) never deserved. I'm sorry for the time that I slapped you and gave you a black eye. I'm sorry for never trying harder to be nice to your friends even though I fucking hate them so much.  I'm sorry for never being honest enough with you, and for just faking so many of my emotions because I felt crazy and ungrateful for feeling less than you. I'm sorry for agreeing to ever be with you, and not demanding that we just stay friends. I think we'd still be friends, if that were the case. I'm sorry for always yelling at you and picking fights. I didn't know how to love you, but I knew how to fight. It was all I was good at. I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry for pushing away all my friends, for always feeling like a loner therefore never trying to be close with anyone, for not having anything to give to start, rekindle, or build on friendships. For the many bipolar mood swings, the lash outs, the tears, the yelling, the ignoring, the disappointing. 

I'll be on my way soon enough. And it's in everyone's best interests, I think.