I'm writing this while I kill time. I want this to be the last thing I ever say about you. I may add on later, because I'm limited on time, but whatever. There's a lot of things I want to say, but you'll never read this. You turned out so different.. I hate it. You were such a hopeless romantic and I loved it, now, you're just an ass. No matter what you've put me through I've never said anything bad about you, but when you hate me for two months over nothing, you say the worst of things and I forgive you for it. Stupid decision on my part, but I did. What was even stupider was trusting that you wouldn't hurt me, when it didn't even take three days before you hurt me, again. You've ignored me for over a week now. You even ignored my drunken crying voice mail I left you when I got into that drunk driving accident. Even though I wanted so badly to believe you would have cared, I knew you wouldn't. You promised me you wouldn't leave again, but ignoring me is you walking out, and I'm sorry I ever let you back in. Currently, from what I see, you're ignoring the girl that is so madly in love with you. The girl that if you asked to be hers, she would say yes in less than a heartbeat. The girl that would do anything for you, all for some girl in a different state? All you do is talk about how sad you are, or how much you hate being single, when your solution to the problem is sitting here right in front of you waiting for you to take notice. But, you're right, you're blind in a fog drift. You don't see shit, but what you chose to see. Even though everything you've said to me denying the things you said when you were mad was cute, I still only believe the things you said when you were mad. I'm worthless, a waste of your time and energy, ugly, no one wants me, the gap in my teeth is horrid. I got it all, and believe it all. Thank you, Tim. You know, if we would have flew off the road a foot sooner than we had, we would have died in that accident. Sometimes, I wish it would have happened. You wouldn't have to worry about me, and maybe you would actually miss me. But, that's just crazy talk. You would never miss me. I love you, Tim. I told you forever and always, and I mean't that. I'm sorry you didn't mean it as well. I hope you find someone else that will take you virginity, I know I was the only girl you wanted to take it, but I can't believe a word you say. I hope you enjoy your life. This is my goodbye. I know you'll never read this, but it was good to get it out. I hope and have faith that god will take you all the places you want to go in life, you deserve it.
