[CW Talk about integration, major changes in a system, grief]
We're going through a tough time rn. We've been from being a traumagenic, heavily fragmented system to a median one. From what we've gathered in therapy and in private, most of the alters who were individuals integrated and what remains are parts of myself at different ages/emotional state.
And now, it feels like I'm struck by grief, like I lost my friends. More than a decade of being together. It feels so weird. I know that it means we healed, but a part of me struggles to get it, and another part is like, "What if we didn't actually integrate but just lost communication ?" and not knowing is hard.
Has anyone lived that kind of big change in their system ? How do you process all this ? I'm aware that you don't know much about us, and it's really specific, but any type of insight helps. Even resources. If you can. Thanks.