bloated
TW: Self-hate, body image issues i feel so bloated :(
physically, mentally, emotionally...
I dunno i just feel so overwhelmed everyday.
I feel gross, fat and disgusting. I know that belo ad shouldnt affect me but it does. When I see it, I just think about how III look like that woman. How much I've let myself go.
All I do is just try to keep myself alive. I've really forgotten what its like to live and enjoy life. Most of the time I just feel like a Sim, doing what has to be done but not really finding the meaning of life.
I feel so bloated, ugly, and disgusting. I carry all this trash fat around me like Im a walking garbage can. Ugly disgusting sac of shit that is not worthy of anything. I wear my old clothes and just feel the fabric on my like its something disgusting. I just wish I could either just embrace this or cut the fat away.
I hate my body sooooooo much. I hate that im at this never ending cycle of hating my body but also not doing anything about it. Why cant I just be normal and wake up everyday and not question my life's existence. Why cant I just wake up and exercise and not be so lazy?
Well, maybe I can try and change that by getting up and changing into work out clothes and move about for awhile.