#gp trainee

[misboxiemd]

cried all night last night.

worried and stressed about a number of things. and feeling overwhelmed.

feel like im simply not good enough for this job

wish i could take a break. maybe work Less Than Full Time. but i dont want to increase my training time. would really like to be done next summer. and dont want even more salary cuts by going LTFT.

i dont think i can go in to work for my next clinic.

[misboxiemd]

It’s been a looong time since i’ve posted on here. Something happened today and i didnt feel like posting on my twitter.

Currently in my ST2 (2nd year) of GP training (ie General practice/Family Medicine). This year is one of integrated posts. Half of the week is in the GP practice and the other half is in a hospital/other clinic.

I’m currently on Obgyn and GP.

This morning, im in one of the outpatient obgyn clinics. I got to work a couple mins before clinic started and went to my room. My consultant and the reg hadnt yet come. Id occasionally pop into their rooms but they didnt turn up till like 9:13ish or so.

So i hear the consultant’s voice and go to her clinic room. Because they have the patient files for their clinic and share the ones they want the reg and SHO to see.

I see her coming out of the room and I say “Good morning Miss ABC” and she ignores me and walks past me. I figure she’ll be back in a moment. She comes back with a patient and as im trying to explain to her that I’m with her for clinic for the morning, she’s like “can you come out I’m coming in with a patient.”

So i wait for her to finish with that patient and pop back in and tell her im on the team for the morning.

She says ‘hello Jackie, the clinic starts at 9 …’

And i say ‘yes, i’ve been here since about 8:55 and kept coming to check if you were here’

The rest of the clinic goes fine.

I found it extremely rude how she just ignored me at first when i tried to speak to her. When I went in she also didnt know who i was.

the obgyn consultants dont even recognize your face or name even though they’ve worked with you before a week or two ago. Like you’re just a body getting their work done for them. Havent experienced this with any other group/on any other rotation in the last 3.5 years i’ve been working in medicine. NHS service-provision at it’s finest.

(meant to post on Monday 6/2/23)