#graduating?

[y-soblu]

i have recently become aware of the passage of time and now i feel incredibly old despite the fact i havent even finished highschool yet...BUT I WILL NEXT YEAR. THIS IS SCARY.

[spinalembrace]

Today I got up early to do an online exam regarding children's position in criminal law and divorce conflict. I was not super thrilled about the course — its main focus was on psychologists praxis in these processes. I was allowed to have all the course material with me during the exam, so it took a lot of the weight from my shoulders. I think I passed it (there were some "tick a box" -questions, results of which I saw immediately afterwards) but I'll still wait to hear from the teachers.

I am one step closer to finishing my bachelor's degree.

[cg-onahealthjourney]

Summer Break

I officially sat my last exam this academic year. Hopefully the last one of my undergrad years, but I still have to wait to know whether or not my grades will be enough. I guess I'll hear next week. I'm sooo nervous about it. I'm really excited about the grad school I'm supposed to be going to in September soooo yah.

Anyway nothing I can do about it now anyway. I'm going to try and enjoy the beginning of Summer! Even though I'm working... But thats something else lol

I can't wait to know for sure so I can start planning and stuff. Uhhh. Anxiety has not been doing so well lately but I'm trying!

[soundslikephone-blog]

Magtapos...

Marami ibig sabihin nito, marahil eto na talaga yung pinaka GOAL naten. Yung matapos na yung sleepless nights at kaba na nararamdaman tuwing titingnan sa monitor ang grades na pinaghirapan mo. Tama ang mga prof naten, ang tunay na kalaban naten ay hindi sila kundi yung sarili naten. Yung katamaran naten magaral at di pagbabasa. Huwag din naten isisi sa grading system dahil tayo ang gumagawa ng grades naten. Tayo dapat yung kumontrol sa resulta nito. Di ako magmamalinis dahol ako din naman ay bumabagsak. Oo maraming beses na. Pero kahit ganoon eh matuto kang matuto sa kamalian. Hindi yung puro simula lang, minsan talaga naiiyak na lang ako kase nahihirapan ako lalo na pagpinagpuyatan ko na at lahat pero ni isa parang walang lumabas sa exam. Na ending di naging worth it yung pagpupuyat mo. Araw-araw din nalulungkot ako na hindi na ko nagaaral sa *insert school in Ermita* kase ansakit sakit pa rin sa akin na wala na ko dun. Pero dahil naman nun nagsusumikat ako ngayon para maayos ang mga mali. Alam ko na bias yun sa school ko ngayon pero oarang yung puso ko andun pa din pero yung pisikal ko nasa Intramuros. Lagi din ako umiiyak sa mahabang lakaran. Napapagod ako kase di ako sanay kase malapit lang dati yung school ko. Namimiss ko din mga kaibigan ko. Oo meron na kong mga kaibigan ngayon pero iba pa rin yung mga dun. Yung mafefeel mo yung totoong kaibigan sila yun eh,, silang sila yun. Ngayon naman mas lalong kumakabog ang dibdib ko sa bagong siste,a na pinatupad sa skul yung retention policy at may ceiling grade pa. Ewan ko pero mas hinaha,on ata ang ng panahon at ni Lord sa napili kong propesyon pero di ako titigil kase alam ko magiging worth it lahat ng to. Alam ko na kahit mahirap to may maganda pang plano si God para sa akin at alam kong sa dulo ng to' tatawanan ko na lang lahat ng iniiyakan ko. Tatawanan ko na lang yung mga problema ko ngayon at sasabihin na Nakaya ko... :) Kaya sa pagtatapos ko, hahahah syempre di pa ngayon. hopefully 1 yr na lang. Sa pagtatapos na muna ng mga kabatch ko. Ingat kayo. Nakakalungkot na hindi ako makakasabay sa pagmamartya kasama ko pero ganun talaga may mauuna at mahuhuli.... pero iisa lang naman patutunguhan naten kaya see you mga kapatid! congrats at sa march gagraduate na kayo. Godbless! Mwah,

[beepieboopiebop]

Finals and graduating had me stressed and tired, and I am a stress-eater, tired-snacker, and procrastination/overwhelmed eater. So now I feel like I've gained like 20 pounds in the last 5 days and I feel generally shitty.

[nocte-syreni]

I don't like feeling like this at all. I don't like not knowing. I don't like not being in control.

[symphonies-of-a-storm]

It's awkward hearing from my coworkers say "congratulations" to me when I tell them I'm not coming back next semester.......

I'm not graduating yettt (oh how I wishhhh), I should make that more clear next time....