gravel to tempo: have you come out to anyone? if yes, who was the first person you told? if no, do you want to? who would you tell first?mmm, technically I’ve never “come out.” ofc, not to my mom or my family, or my irl friends, but most of my internet friends/tumblr friends were on my journey to discovering the fact that i’m into girls. so it was never a whole “yo i’m interested in girls” thing, it was just a few “hm, i think i might be interested in girls, what’s the difference between this sexuality, that sexuality, and just being affectionate lol” moments.but, the first person i mentioned it to was a girl i’m still friends with i met online years ago (who is also sapphic) and it all came about because i thought i had a crush on her, haha.do i want to though? it’s pretty split. some days i wouldn’t mind it, because my mom has had some favorable reactions to me asking things like, “you wouldn’t do that if i liked girls, would you?” (generally from reactions to news stories/shows dealing with homophobia and stuff), but other days i just feel kinda sick because she’s kind of unpredictable and the rest of my family as well, so uh. for the time being. i’m pretty much in the closet. if i did tell someone though, it’d be my mom probably. buuut, i’m not sure.wanna be missed: how dependent or independent are you in a relationship? do you like a lot of space, or a lot of intimacy? how do you feel about electronic (vs face to face) communication?i think i’m a bit 50/50. uh. i have had technically one real relationship and i was both dependent and independent. but i think i have days of being 40/60 or 90/10. like, some days i just want to do things my way by myself alone while others i want to cling to someone like cat hair to black clothing. you know? i like both space and intimacy, and that also carries into my sexual attraction. idk, it’s weird. and probably tmi i guess.also. my ex and i were in a ldr, so i’m a bit touchy on distance and electronic communication only right now. but. if i were in a trusting, committed relationship and there was some sort of move or job offer or college difference, it would really depend. ldr’s suck. i guess i really wouldn’t mind texting, video-calling, etc., if the conditions were right, but i can’t really describe the right conditions either lol.