I feel really bad for admitting this, but I think I need time away from our Soos. I know he really means well but I think he thinks I think (confusing...) that mentions of Bill is funny to me. It's not. Please please do not bring up Bill around me. It's stupid, I know, but I genuinely cannot stand it; it's not funny to me. I'm scared for a reason. He's dead for a reason. Please stop.
The worst part is that I know he means genuinely no harm in it. I just don't know how to tell him how bad my heart practically leaps out of my chest whenever he sends me a stupid photo of Bill. I don't want him to feel bad; but this feels like something I can't tell him without him feeling bad.
The people I share a space with told me that putting myself out there was a good idea, instead of just being a recluse all of the time. I don't see the harm in that myself, but it's worth a try.
Call me Dipper. I don't logically know how old I am here, but I'm old enough to know better. Creepy adults can get out of here, please and thank you.
Anyway, I like to read, write, learn latin, draw, and research my own existence as an "intro–ject". My previous existence doesn't define me, but im welcome to interacting with other intro–jects and fictives from my "source"!
I might not post much since typing on this phone is really tough. It's like a tiny, janky journal.
To my knowledge this is a side account, so most of our Tumblr interactions will probably be from the main account we have? I think it's @bg-fellow.
The ( metaphorical ) parasites inside my head are totally not scratching at the insides of my skull, begging me to give you supply, because making others happy gives me supply back. Nooooo, not at all. Neither has my own NPD decided that you're now a Cool Person™ that I lowkey wanna befriend cuz of stupid NPD hierarchy stuff, but I don't wanna be weird about it cuz that'd make me Uncool™ which is bad. I am so normal and totally not at all disordered as hell. Have I mentioned that I am normal? Cuz I SO am
Anyway, hi, how are you doing? Please tell me in detail something you wanna rant about teehee /gen
Hello hello! Yes it’s fine we are VERY normal. (Somehow I’m considered friendly even though I wish everyone a painful death in my deep thoughts.) How stupid is it that being called a cool person you want to befriend making me high off of the moon? I really feel like I should be better than this.. but I’m not. (And any and all supply will make a functioning human for once so I very much encourage it!) I’m doing just lovely, I was reading up on a BL horror on A03 before this.. I am very chronically online…but anyways!
I’m going to rant about something I’ve been thinking on for a bit— source memories. (Under cut) (TW for slight gore-ish? Mention of limbs dismembered and implied death)
Oh my word, I’m so confusing? I’ve never watched my source material, but I’ve seen fanworks and such. Why am I..so blurry on what happened in my life? I remember up to my ‘friend’ Fiddleford betraying me and quitting..but everything else is fuzzy. I never met my brother. I’ve heard of me going through my portal and coming back to earth via my brother working towards it? I suppose that’s how canon went. But after the portal blast, all I saw were pieces of bodies. Disappearing.The house was desert, leaving a burnt husk of wood and radiation. I ended up rebuilding it and restarting my life with my new findings of the new dimensions. But apparently, I sail with my betraying brother in canon? Why??
Anyways..infodumping about myself always gives me a charge 🖤
well the last one was me being reincarnated as the son of diper (????😭) and another one was me being in human form and somehow going to a mascarade party organised by mabel. most were one shots 'n stuff, oh! and one was just another me screaming into the multiverse and breaking the 4th wall for 600 words LMAO, and another one was just angst in the theraprism *shrug*
didnt really find anything really interesting but was curious and my headmates were curious too (those freaking traumaphiles istg smh/j fond), plus i wanted to see more of ✨ME✨ and well at least i got what i asked for- <//3
anyway here's the list of everything i had the time to look at :
http://archiveofourown.org/works/59591644
http://archiveofourown.org/works/62320366
http://archiveofourown.org/works/30718451
http://archiveofourown.org/works/10897758 <-i skipped all the parts that weren't about me because it was long as HELL
This is only my second time sketching while in front. Please bear with me; my art skills are a little rusty. Anyway, I have decided to draw myself along with the wedding rings my husband made for me. He worked delicately to craft a ring perfect for me that showed our infinite love while fitting perfectly on two of my fingers. -🦉Ford | DID introject alter.
