Happy Birthday, Dad. I miss you so much, this us our first birthday without you and it's breaking my heart. I have cried so much today. You should be here, pulling up to our house right about now, excited about the food we just made, the cake we have and your presents... Not in an urn on my mantle, with your old keys next to it,and your photo in an alter.
I miss you so much.. your voice, how i desperately want to hear it today,me calling you early this morning singing you happy birthday and you clapping along happily and thanking me happily, saying how I never forget and I'm always the first one to call at 6 am, since you call me on mine at 6 am.
I can't do that anymore. No one will pickup except for my mom if I call now. If I text you, no one will text back. But I still left a text.. I miss you so so much. Papi.. you have no idea how much of a hole you left in my heart when you left me 8 months ago and crossed to the other side. I fucking hate cancer so much for taking you from me.
You should be here, with us! It's not fair. Other people should of been taken instead of you. I wish I could hug you one more time and tell you all the things that have happened and how much I love you dad.
Im sorry I couldn't do much.. Papi te extraño mucho... In our next lives ,and every life after that, let's be father and daughter again, okay? I will never forget you, like I promised. 🩷
some old videos from his past birthdays, idc that I look bad in it because I was at home and in pain at that time but we aways spent time together whenever we could. I miss him so much.. im so lost without him and it's been 8 months since I lost my dad..
We should be bickering about how your knees are going to be tired at 107. We should be eating cake in your living room, watching the birds at your feeders. Your house should be full of flowers and cards and people who love you.
Instead it’s me, leaving seed for birds. It’s buying a bouquet and looking for starts of flowers hoping for spring. For some sign you’re still with me. That’s the problem when your person is so much older than you and you get spoiled having them for 30 out of your 31 years. Happy birthday grandma, wherever you are.
