❛ I need to forget a ridiculous, childish idea that I could love someone, they could love me, and nothing else mattered. ❜
@guardianshield Reign Sentence starters {Closed} (OH. I SEE HOW IT IS.)
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His Shield’s words were like a dagger to his heart, forcing the air unceremoniously from his lungs. Freezing mid step, Regis found himself still as a statue while he tried to comprehend the words Clarus had just uttered. Hand still on the door handle, Regis slowly released it, not wanting to open the door and leave his room just yet. He knew this would be hard. He thought he’d prepared himself adequately.
“Clarus, I-” He choked on himself, swallowing his words painfully, “-we yet knew this day would come.” He forced out, his mind reeling with an agony that spread like poison through his veins. They knew, but that didn’t make it any easier.
“Mine father intends to find me a suitable match, as I have ‘not chosen one yet.’ I cannot deny the responsibilities of mine bloodline. He would not see the line end with me.” His jaw set, and he spoke as though he was attempting to rationalize it- but the tone of his voice betrayed the shaking weakness his mind held. It was like he was being shattered on the inside- not for himself, but for Clarus.
Gods, his Shield could not have been served a more unfair lot in life. Regis would give anything if it meant for the other man to be happy.
“And yet….” He breathed, shutting his eyes sharply in anger. “-I cannot accept it so easily. ‘Tis mine own weakness. No fault of yours. None of this is.”
Trying to loose the tension in his body, Regis lifted a hand to tangle it through his own locks in a momentary fit of frustration.
“….Do not forget it. I see nothing childish about it. I will find a way to postpone this. Even if I must sacrifice myself to my Father’s whim for a time.”