#guilt feeling

[justicecaballer]

i want to start an ask blog but:

1. im bad at that

2. Im Bad At That

3. i tried it once 6 years ago and it was good for maybe like 9 posts but then i continued to be Bad at That

[pautheawesomepanda]

Gu(il)t feeling.

“Was there ever anything good from that place?” Almost everyday, I asked myself this question. Was there ever really anything good about that place?

At least, some kind of a saving grace?

The answer was one-word, harsher than it seemed.

The answer was None.

And then I looked back. I remembered the first day. Instead of the usual and normal excitement that was expected, I had a gut feeling.

This gut feeling sensed danger. 

This gut feeling sensed disinterest.

This gut feeling sensed loneliness.

But instead of following my instincts - that so-called gut feeling that has been in my head several times, I followed chance instead, which was felt once by my heart.

And this chance got me nowhere. I held on to positivity and optimism, and I tried hard not to regret this chance that I held on to.

This chance was actually my own pride. In this battle, the positivity and optimism that I had, broke like a rusty armor. I became defenseless, and I had to endure that for long months. I was probably on the losing side, because I felt like a Commander that will eventually become a Prisoner of war, a captive in a besieged castle. God help me really. I prayed, for myself, for those who I treated acquaintances, and my enemies. I really didn’t know how to deal with the situation that has become dire to me.

And then I remembered - “Prayer” will reinforce me.

After the longstanding battle, I know it will end. And it inevitably, it did.

Suddenly, I remembered looking back at that place that I was a captive for long months, walking around the hallway, and realizing that the only thing untainted and good about that place -- Is their Chapel, the prayer room. I know God will help them, as He helped me.

[leeyoodyim]

Exempted Ako sa Finals

No Exam below 50, at least 69 percent Pre - Final Standing. Yey nakuha ko yung mga requirements para maexempt sa finals. Dapat diba masaya ako? Kasi exempted na ako sa finals. Hindi ko na kailangang aralin ang mga set ng handouts para sa subject na yun.

Ang weird lang kasi hindi ako masyadong nagagalak na naexempt ako. Siguro dahil yung mga kaibigan ko ay kailangan pang magfinals at kailangan nila ng mataas na Final Exam Score para maipasa yung subject. Naguiguilty ako dahil feel ko hindi ko sila naturuan sa subject na yun lalo pa't sobrang naiintindihan ko yung subject na yun.