My universe #2
This can be a very suffering week.
I feel anxious very often, I jealous those people who are calm and peace. They seems not the type of person who make plans just out of a sudddenly passion. They will follow the plans step by step when time passed. I’m so jealous that my stomach getting pain. I’m not saying i want to do some evail things to ruin their life, the most awful thing i would do is grab them and keep complaining about my weakness and unhappy life until they start to dislike me. At that time i may leave scilently.
I’m escaping from the world now. I hide myself in this universe at this moment.
10:35am 01/11/21
Making a safe zone for myself is always important. I go to a party(not even a party maybe just a socializing occasion) with concerness. Who should i talk to, what if someone feel boring when i talk, should i join their topic? That’s too much. Everytime i feel like an island in a group of people, i would escape. And now i should have writing my essays, but i don’t.
And did anyone notice i like to open a paragraph with “i feel like” “i don’t think”...dose it represent that i care myself too much? Or only i have no one to write in my diary because loneyness.