#h.a.k

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Build them up with a smile on your face, even as the jagged edges of the pieces make you bleed. When they fly off with their new wings, fall tearfully smiling. 

It was so worth it. 

—h.a.k, nothing makes me happier than knowing i had a hand in making you whole again // excerpt from the letters i’ll never send

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“Don’t get too close,” you warned. “It’s dark inside.”

But love, I’m already traveling through your veins, and I’ve reached your heart. 

So prepare to be lit up. 

—h.a.k, your heart is a bright lantern buried in layers of dust, and dust accumulates in unused corners  // excerpt from the letters i’ll never send

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Home is

Mama's kiss pressed on my forehead

and

Mama's fingers tangled in my hair

and

Mama's lap holding my heavy head.

—h.a.k, when mommy loves me

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No. You’re not fine. You’re not ok. Stop lying to yourself. Stop denying it.

Truth is, you’re a mess. Truth is, you’ve lost yourself. Truth is, you need help. 

And help is here. It’s in front of you. But you’re afraid, because you’ve lied to yourself for so long, you don’t know what’s wrong with you anymore. 

But I know. And I’m telling you. And I’m here. And I’m going to push you back into yourself until there isn’t that two year gap between you and this stranger you’ve become. 

And I’m going to keep banging on this iron door you’ve shut in my face until it melts with the heat of the anger and the passion and the worry and the love and the worry and the love and the worry and the love, love, love.  Or until the weight of the concern and the love pouring through my determined fists wears you down, and you— just open the damn door.

—h.a.k, Truth is or What I Should’ve Said

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I don't want to know If she's pretty or gorgeous or if she has a beautiful smile I want to know Does she make you laugh? Does she listen to you? Can you vent to her and know she understands-- Can she understand? Does she know the way you think Does she agree with your deepest thoughts? Can she hold the truth of you in her mind And fall in love with it over and over again Can she recognize your lies and see through your people-pleasing facade of a smile Can she put you first, even when you don't? Can she show you who you are- when you've lost yourself? Does she know the sadness in your eyes and the emptiness in your heart and the fear in your bones and the instability of the house of burning cigarettes that you've caged yourself in? Does she know your dreams the aspirations you've burned the memories you've buried the conflicts you don't want to face the disappointments you don't want to see in the mirror Does she know? Or do you love that she doesn't that you can be someone else that you can be carefree and have some fleeting sense of happiness and believe it Because I was too heavy on your heart and your soul And you thought I was ripping apart the cage to pull you out bleeding and bruising-- But I wasn't. I wanted to gently nurture your soul ease it out slowly open its eyes and wash away the shackles that bound it I wanted to lovingly Pour my heart into yours Carry you on my back until you could stand on your own Until I was left on the ground tearfully smiling watching you walk confidently, humbly off to the Right. I wanted to I want to. Does she want that? Does she know-- it's what you need? I don't want to know. 

— h.a.k, 2:03 a.m. or this one’s close to my heart and i want to fix you || excerpt from the letters i’ll never send

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Your life is a spiral bound notebook, but the pages are thin with disuse, and the ends of the coil jut out and scrape your neck angrily. And the barcode at the back displays an endless number of complications that you never managed to resolve- simply because procrastination is what fills those blank, empty pages.

h.a.k, from Reflections of an Intelligent Mirror || Part 3

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I miss you with a thousand smiles and a million choked tears.

h.a.k // excerpt from a tribute to my dada [grandfather]

[nmlum]

H.A.K (HARDLY ATTRACTIVE KLOTHES) Is coming REALLY SOON. Get ready.

Abdelhak Asserrar (Founder of H.A.Kompany).