@halfpyre said . . . “ you’re not dating anyone, are you? ”
it’s been months without contact — pure radio silence on both ends — and as much as she’d like to convince herself that time heals all wounds, the moment that felix steps into what was once their favorite coffee shop ( the very one that she’s been avoiding for far too long even though it’s the perfect distance between her place & the office ), her wounds feel fresh, raw, like they had never scarred over at all. maybe a less mature brooke would’ve ducked for cover behind the counter — slipped the barista a twenty to keep her hidden and sneak her out the back door — but she’s evolved, she’s grown. she can be an adult about this — right?
instead, she approaches with a smile — one a bit too forced, one that makes her face hurt — and offers to buy him his iced red eye before he can turn her down ( how he can drink that concoction, she’ll never know. it’s basically rocket fuel ). before she knows it, they’re tucked into their favorite corner table, away from the hustle and bustle of the line, a single chocolate croissant to share between them — old habits die hard . . . she probably should’ve ordered two.
the small talk is awkward at first, as to be expected. she asks how he’s doing, in the general sense. he says good. visa versa. it’s unsettling, really, to meander through such bullshit conversation with the person who knows you most intimately. they speak like strangers, but as she listens to his words, she can’t help but think about the fact that his smile reflects hers, that it isn’t real, because if it was, there’d be crinkling at the corners of his eyes. she can’t help but to miss the fact that the last time they sat at this table ( and every other time ) their hands were stretched across it, fingers intertwined, as if they had all the time in the world together. she misses that.
and suddenly, when they’ve run out of things to say, he brings out the question that she herself has been dying to ask, but wouldn’t dare. they both always struggled with tact — she’s just had to find some deep within her since becoming such a businesswoman. her heart races, despite the true answer to his question being incredibly dull. still, she takes a split second to decide whether to tell the truth or to invent a story in the way she just knows her mother would be proud of. ultimately, it doesn’t take long to choose. he’d know if she was lying anyway.
“ uh — no. not really. i mean, i go on dates sometimes — for events. but they’re not date dates, you know? they don’t mean anything. ” she’s rambling now, nerves getting the best of her, for she fears his answer to the question more than admitting her own truth, “ and you? are you seeing anyone? ” her stomach drops down to somewhere around her knees as she waits for his response.