@hamayas Said: "I don't think you're any of the things you say you are."
Dealing with Self Loathing
Deep inhale through the nose.
Figures she'd choose words he couldn't refute. Free to call her opinions idiotic, but at the end of the day, he had no control over what anyone thought. A sense of conflict, just talking about this kind of thing was probably one of his dumbest ideas. She was the one who said she wanted to know bitter times, and sad times. That she wanted to hear how he thought. So he'd stepped off the ledge, and told her some of it.
And she's disagreeing with him.
All it left was an unusual anxiety in his chest. It was easier, safer to revert to an older mindset. To get angry, to yell. Give them a reason to hate you, then at least they hate you for who you are, not what you are. It didn't hurt as much, it was a lesson he'd learned earlier on in his life. A lesson only he was allowed to know. By now, Inuyasha felt every bit justified for hating a world that chose to hate him for no reason.
Every bit justified in hating--
Whatever.
But did words like these have to come from Kagome's voice?
"Keh. If you were gonna tell me I'm wrong, I'd have kept my mouth shut in the first place. Dontcha think I already feel enough like a whiny bastard for sayin' any of this at all?"
A sharp flick of the wrist. His way of indirectly telling her to leave
Did he want her to? No.
But these moments were better spent by himself. Doesn't even wait, Inuyasha took that initiative and was already walking down the river's edge, where they'd been standing. Silence in every step, ears partway folded and shoulders tense.
It was his lack of aggression that said more than anything he could have shouted.
"I got better shit to do with my time, Kagome. Go pick flowers or somethin'."
