#han's post

[suratkami]

So I was dumb and wrote my next post on my phone, and just as I finished the last line I accidentally ended all my apps so poof that draft disappeared into the void, lost forever damn my clumsy thumbs.

How much of that should I rewrite hmm

I was telling you guys about the time I spent at a nearby Early Years Education Centre which is a fancier name for a daycare really. Last week was my second and last day there (it was so short but so long) and I remember being really nervous about it at first, especiay the few days before my first time there, but you know, I’m glad I convinced myself to go because it was fun.

There was a little girl there who, when I first walked in and said hello, took one look at me and ran to the opposite side of the room. I was so worried I had spooked her, and that she was going to avoid me all day, but then she brought over a ball to me and basically asked me to play with her. I was so touched! I didn’t think any of the kids would remember me but I think some of them might have, and I know she definitely did, because the first day I was there, she spent 80% of that time staring at me and keeping her distance so she definitely did. At least, I think she did. Anyway, this adorable, sweet, lovely girl played with me, sat on me, asked me to read to her, and pointed out birds to me. I was so happy.

At some point, another girl with lovely wavy hair wiped her snot on the sleeve of my sweater but she too was adorable and very young so i forgave her.

And you know, it felt like a once in a lifetime experience, because near the end of the session, a kookaburra came to visit! It landed on a tree nearby and started making noise, and it was! So! Amazing to see the way every little head in that area turn towards the noise. All these little people rushing towards the tree, chattering and pointing and being excited because it was a kookaburra! Look at it! Did you hear that? Isn’t that amazing? How wonderful the world looks when you’re young, a rookie starting out on their big adventure.

Anyway, I wanted to share that with you guys because I think you both know how terrified I am of tiny children, and I think that attachment helped me deal with that fear, at least a little. So I’m glad. I’m gonna miss those kids.

[suratkami]

Do you ever get the feeling...like you want to delete every social connection you have? Because every day it shows you how the world is advancing, as the people you know grow and grow and achieve the futures they've always talked about? And all those Instagram pictures, all those Facebook posts are just contant reminders of how you're stagnating, because a series of unfortunate decisions from years ago put you on a path of no return and now it's too far for you to turn back but every day you're more convinced that you can't go on. The sun is scorching down your back, and your bones are worn down to dust, but the day is never-ending it just keeps going on and on and on and on We all strive for the skies, but how many of us ever get that far, how many get lost amongst the clouds, how many of us never leave the ground? You want to be financially secure and you want to be happy but you're starting to wonder if maybe the two are separate states of being, if maybe you have to pick one and give up on the other or run the risk of never knowing either and being lost in limbo because you were too stubborn, too cowardly, too dependent on others knowing what's best for you. Look at where you are now.

[suratkami]

Hey guys! So as Dan suggested, I’m gonna make this text post (and take the lead on(?) our new scoreboard woooooooooo

Without further ado,

I was listening to Frank Ocean’s new album, Blonde, and I got about halfway through the album before i realised I...wasn’t really enjoying it? Maybe it just wasn’t the right time to listen to it, but I ended up closing the tab and listening to something else. But hey, maybe you’ll like it, Dan! Maybe consider giving it a try anyway.

I did listen to his song, Pyramids, from Orange, which I really like, though. If you wanted to check that out.

Anyway, that’s all from me.

(Tomorrow, I go to battle with kids. Pray for me, and if I don’t return, share out a bottle of vanilla coke at my wake)

-thatonetimeisawacerealboxandscreamed

[suratkami]

so excited for you guys to get here, So. Excited. It’s going to be fun, I hope. We’re going on a trip together??? Do you realise this is the first time I’ve had “permission” to go on a trip with you guys? *excited screaming*

Also my class is boring so I’m writing this instead. God knows, but the lecturer doesn’t.

[suratkami]

Hey gurls. Just wanted to let you know:

I had donuts for dessert the other day. It was good.

And now, a poem. (Courtesy of Dan’s prompt: flight not blight)

The clouds always look, A little too far, The sun always looks, A little too bright, The sky always looks, Just out of reach.

Missing you all, -han

[suratkami]

What’s the word for when you’re feeling like bubbles floating around and you can see the super sharp needle that will eventually pop you and you don’t know how to stop it from happening so you just keep floating and floating and sometimes you veer off course but you always end up coming back and the needle is always there

-han

[suratkami]

This is gonna be brief bc i tgh stress hahaha. So guess who still doesn't have a health insurance???????? Also. Big Hero!!

[suratkami]

Hey ladies! What did you think about the storm last night eh? Pretty awesome no? It blew the windows open, tripped the electricity, crashed like a million cows in the sky...great stuff. Hope none of you got caught in it. Love, -han