#suratkami

[suratkami]

I’m 25 and I watch anime. Does that sound immature and childish? Well obviously I don’t think it is, but I know damn well for a fact that my friends do. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t care what they think of it but its more of the fact that they think so damn highly of themselves for not watching it is the thing that gets me. As if watching a cartoon series makes you less.. smart? We all read the news, get off your high horse. 

For example, I suggest a Ghibli movie and they will swiftly and condescendingly dismiss the movie (because, “cartoon”) but will gladly accept a third rate Hollywood movie. I mean, what’s that about? So you can’t accept watching this movie because 1) it doesn’t have real life human actors in it and 2) it’s in a different language. Have you heard of this magical thing called subtitles, though? It helps with the translation. 

(Okay, reign it in girl) I’m not finished.

Right, so you refuse to watch any form of animation because you’re an adult who only watches serious, deep, thought-provoking movies. That’s fine. But here’s the thing; you can enjoy your own thing but let other people enjoy theirs as well. Did you have to go out of your way to.. insult it? It’s part of who I am so when you insult it, you’re partly insulting me too. 

Oh, I’m going there alright. Don’t call it being dramatic. If you are, again, get off your high horse you insufferable ass. The least you could do is not to be condescending. 

[suratkami]

So I was dumb and wrote my next post on my phone, and just as I finished the last line I accidentally ended all my apps so poof that draft disappeared into the void, lost forever damn my clumsy thumbs.

How much of that should I rewrite hmm

I was telling you guys about the time I spent at a nearby Early Years Education Centre which is a fancier name for a daycare really. Last week was my second and last day there (it was so short but so long) and I remember being really nervous about it at first, especiay the few days before my first time there, but you know, I’m glad I convinced myself to go because it was fun.

There was a little girl there who, when I first walked in and said hello, took one look at me and ran to the opposite side of the room. I was so worried I had spooked her, and that she was going to avoid me all day, but then she brought over a ball to me and basically asked me to play with her. I was so touched! I didn’t think any of the kids would remember me but I think some of them might have, and I know she definitely did, because the first day I was there, she spent 80% of that time staring at me and keeping her distance so she definitely did. At least, I think she did. Anyway, this adorable, sweet, lovely girl played with me, sat on me, asked me to read to her, and pointed out birds to me. I was so happy.

At some point, another girl with lovely wavy hair wiped her snot on the sleeve of my sweater but she too was adorable and very young so i forgave her.

And you know, it felt like a once in a lifetime experience, because near the end of the session, a kookaburra came to visit! It landed on a tree nearby and started making noise, and it was! So! Amazing to see the way every little head in that area turn towards the noise. All these little people rushing towards the tree, chattering and pointing and being excited because it was a kookaburra! Look at it! Did you hear that? Isn’t that amazing? How wonderful the world looks when you’re young, a rookie starting out on their big adventure.

Anyway, I wanted to share that with you guys because I think you both know how terrified I am of tiny children, and I think that attachment helped me deal with that fear, at least a little. So I’m glad. I’m gonna miss those kids.

[suratkami]

Do you ever get the feeling...like you want to delete every social connection you have? Because every day it shows you how the world is advancing, as the people you know grow and grow and achieve the futures they've always talked about? And all those Instagram pictures, all those Facebook posts are just contant reminders of how you're stagnating, because a series of unfortunate decisions from years ago put you on a path of no return and now it's too far for you to turn back but every day you're more convinced that you can't go on. The sun is scorching down your back, and your bones are worn down to dust, but the day is never-ending it just keeps going on and on and on and on We all strive for the skies, but how many of us ever get that far, how many get lost amongst the clouds, how many of us never leave the ground? You want to be financially secure and you want to be happy but you're starting to wonder if maybe the two are separate states of being, if maybe you have to pick one and give up on the other or run the risk of never knowing either and being lost in limbo because you were too stubborn, too cowardly, too dependent on others knowing what's best for you. Look at where you are now.

[suratkami]

Hey guys! So as Dan suggested, I’m gonna make this text post (and take the lead on(?) our new scoreboard woooooooooo

Without further ado,

I was listening to Frank Ocean’s new album, Blonde, and I got about halfway through the album before i realised I...wasn’t really enjoying it? Maybe it just wasn’t the right time to listen to it, but I ended up closing the tab and listening to something else. But hey, maybe you’ll like it, Dan! Maybe consider giving it a try anyway.

I did listen to his song, Pyramids, from Orange, which I really like, though. If you wanted to check that out.

Anyway, that’s all from me.

(Tomorrow, I go to battle with kids. Pray for me, and if I don’t return, share out a bottle of vanilla coke at my wake)

-thatonetimeisawacerealboxandscreamed

[suratkami]

I know this blog is seriously dead, deader than Ned Stark dead, but I gotta let this one out.

So two months ago, my dearest friend, Cass, introduced me to this random guy. I thought nothing of it, as I normally do. ‘Guys are like the subway. Miss one and the next one comes in 5 minutes. They come and go.’ Or so I thought. I don’t even know when I became so jaded to the whole romance/dating scene, but now that I realise it, I really was.

Enter Irfan. We started with some friendly texts over WA, as you do. When we decided to finally meet face to face, I still didn’t give it any thought other than 'Alright, let’s get this date done and over with.’

But clearly all of that changed when I actually met him and talked to him. He was funny, intelligent, soft spoken and, honestly, this was the one that did it for me, had some sense of religious obligation. I thought to myself 'Damn, who is this guy?!’ On the drive back home, I found myself replaying our conversation and already planning for a second date - which in itself is a very rare feat. I was desperately curious. I wanted (I still do) to know everything about him. What does he like? Why did he choose medicine, of all things? What does he do in his spare time? I NEEED TO KNOW

And so we started talking for real, in depth, went out on more dates (actually, we just shoved the dates in whenever we could lol) and slowly, I sort of.. Fell for him. I was mildly horrified at first. Was it weird? Hell yea. I barely knew the guy! I don’t fall for people that easily. But then he’d do things or say things that made my heart jump/settle in content and ugh, he basically made it really easy for me to love him.

And then, all of a sudden, the two months flew by. I didn’t even realise how fast time was moving until I was standing at the airport waving goodbye to him today. It felt like I only met him yesterday.

Sometimes, things happen when you least expect it. I’m glad God placed him in my path and I hope he’ll stay for a long, long time to come. I couldn’t be more thankful to have met him.

If there's anything for you to take away from this sappy post is that 1) don't be too closed off/cynical about love/romance. A few bad eggs shouldn't spoil the whole basket. 2) Gods timing is the best timing. Things will happen when they're meant to happen :)

I can’t wait for the three of you to meet. It’ll be a mini medical conference and I’ll sit awkwardly at the side, googling everything you nerdy doctors are saying :p

Okay that’s it. Let’s Skype soon haha

Love you guys.

[number11onthefield]

On the way to Rocks Market

[suratkami]

so excited for you guys to get here, So. Excited. It’s going to be fun, I hope. We’re going on a trip together??? Do you realise this is the first time I’ve had “permission” to go on a trip with you guys? *excited screaming*

Also my class is boring so I’m writing this instead. God knows, but the lecturer doesn’t.

[suratkami]

A summary of 8/8/2015

1) I partied with an Obama lookalike

2) I had a mini date at 4 in the morning with a guy who was sobering up. He also gave me a lecture about tauhid and akidah. Ironically. 

3) Said guy also said at one point (after sobering up) “You should come over. I’ll tell my mum ‘This is my future wife’” 

4) I really need to sleep now.