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[amberroseburr]

So throughout this whole, stupid ordeal with her, I've done my best to respect her privacy and reach out here and there on some IG posts. She even sent me a text two weeks ago filled with love & excitement about my coming baby. I updated her a week later, thinking she was genuinely interested and over everything... she isn't.

At this point, for the first time, I am not sad about it anymore. I used to get the worst dreams where we were all best friends again and actually there for eachother during our pregnancy. You know, like we always talked about. She understood that her previous actions in the early part of her pregnancy spoke nothing about her character, everything was understandable and we forgave eachother. Then I wake up with this intense loss and spend all morning crying and wish so hard we could get over this and be there for eachother again.

Now, for the last few weeks, that sadness is gone. I'm just indifferent now. I tried to fix things... I kept her secrets, sometimes she reaches out but it's futile, I lost hope. But I don't feel bad anymore, which is the best feeling. I can post stuff on social media and not feel guilty... I know I had no logical reason to feel guilty, but I couldn't truly enjoy my pregnancy, it was tinged with regret because happiness is so much better shared.

The morning of my shower she left a gift and this beautiful letter on my porch, explaining herself and how she didn't feel happiness when she thought of us so it was easier just to lock it all up & cut me out. Which hurt a lot, knowing that I caused all of this by speaking out, and a part of me wished so much I kept quiet. I cried all day, and it didnt help that guests at my shower kept asking where my best friend was... like what do I say to that?! I just said we are in different places now and she chose to kinda do her own thing...

But fast forward to a few days ago. I am finally at this point where I am indifferent, it feels awesome!!! She has been reaching out, and I'm just like "awesome, I just stop caring, i was probably suffocating her, she genuinely cares about me now, there's a light at the end of this dark tunnel..." I make a bold step and text her, suggesting we get together while I am still pregnant and just take a photo. It would be nice to have after all of this. I tell her we don't need to catch up, I still respect her privacy and all that... it would be nice to have. Two days later, she texts me this:

"That be nice to have but we haven't had any sort of relationship through our pregnancies. Good luck with baby coming super soon! I can't wait to see his/her little face."

We haven't had any relationship, you're right. You closed off your life to me... so what is this wanting to see my baby shit? I don't understand this at all

[amberroseburr]

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[ohmyleague-blog]

I ship Amber with every EXO member

I don't even care if there weren't any interactions, I just ship her with all of them so hard ;;