#happy thoughts!

[wishingstarinajar]

Okay, been a bit negative (especially on Bluesky, woof...) this past week so gonna try and tone it down and be more positive!

Cuz I do appreciate a lot of you, and I don't want to bring any of you down with my bleh talks. And if I already have, then I'm sorry.

[quilbug-reblogs]

HERE ‘throws this at you’

[nittany-tiger]

Mental Health Update

IT’S GOOD!!!

Mostly...

Been meaning to make an “update” where I’m just saying “I’m fine” instead of needing to vent, but I haven’t been motivated to do so until now.  I finished an eight week adult day treatment therapy program last week, and it helped me much more with my mental health issues than I anticipated.  It’s amazing what peer-reviewed psychology and sociology can do!

I still have some demons, though.  For one, I’m still scared of speaking up in groups and expressing anger or frustration.  I’ve been conditioned hard to believe that if I express my anger around others, that I’m in the wrong and I will make others feel bad*.  I don’t like to make friends feel bad, but I also realize that ignoring or cancelling my emotions only causes them to build up into mental illness.  I don’t know how to healthily express anger around others, especially intense anger or other emotions, such as losing badly in a competitive game, and therefore, I avoided competitive games and avoided groups of people that caused me irritation and frustration.  That’s all well and good until said groups are friends and trusted people.  I want to hang out with friends, but I don’t want to have an outburst or cause issues when I get upset.  Hence the dilemma.  Of course, I assume my friends will get upset if I become aggravated at them or at a game, but my assumptions could be wrong.  My friends are not like my family and others in my past, and I no longer have to blame myself for intense emotions.

Nonetheless, I don’t feel as anxious and stressed as I would have been not weeks ago.  I feel like I can more easily deal with my demons and get to the root feelings and core beliefs behind them.  Maybe this is a big turning point in my life where I start to achieve a level of mental stability I haven’t experienced in a very long time...since I was a child.  Only time will tell, but it’s looking good now. ^_^

[muffinlance]

Re: TTS– The WL is definitely Not Happy with Zuko rn and this close to Doing What Avatar Kyoshi Would Have Because She Wasn't A Pacifist Who Was In The Habit Of Leaving Tyrants Alive. Is Piandao also gunning for Zuko's death/surrender or is he more sympathetic because he remembers an awkward turtleduck who wanted to learn how to swordbend? Piandao gives off big "I love my dark strange son" vibes & Zuko needs a new Fire Nation Dad stat. I love your writing so much & hope all is well with you!!!

The only thing you need to know here

Is that I do not hold the comics canon in my writing

And therefore Piandao does not necessarily know Zuko at all

Except that the kid idolized his father, tried to get the Avatar in chains, lit a neutral island on fire, betrayed his Uncle, and capped off this list by starting a civil war.

So.

Have fun with that. <3

[ruining-the-surprise]

Holy shit...

I think i'm falling in love

[ghostmartyr]

Lol the new chapter has a graphic content warning, it’s probably not violence bc there’s violence in every chapter, which means its most likely sexual, and most likely involves Historia, and will most likely result in my death :-)

Any chance that they’re sticking one on because the anime’s airing? More interest means more of a need to clarify what people are getting into?

Maybe?

Or maybe Historia stabs her belly and everyone thinks that’s a little much?

The fact that I came up with that as a positive alternative says far, far too much about me.

[trichotic]

I just got this glorious piece commissioned by a lovely @dr-sawbones! You should go check them out!