I have a confession to make 🥀and it's the fact I haven't watched my Turbo essay all the way through as a finished product ever. Until today actually. Because tbh I have been in the 'oh man perfectionism bullshit brain I can't stand my own voice oh god so many people have seen this' for over a year now until I finally pulled the stick out of my ass and stopped hating myself. It's a fucking amazing video. Oh my god. It's probably the best piece of art I will ever make. I have to make more NOW. Ok well not now but soon. I need to get more than 4 hours of sleep first
Anyways it's strange because all the voice lines I expect to hear are different. Because for hours a day I was editing an alternate version for 7 months and I overhauled the entire first hour of the video in the final month. What I associate with this video the most is actually the WIP and not the actual finished product itself. I forgot my video was this polished and cohesive and all I remember is the awkward mess I was stuck with for the longest time. Oh how the mind distorts things
















