This time last year I was in a TOTALLY different mindset! I didn't want to be alive and I felt so guilty about feeling that way because so many people had lost their loved ones. And George Floyd had JUST been murdered. I was in a really dark place and needed time to go out. There are some times when friends and family can help but others when it's just you and God. That's where I was last year. I am grateful for those friends and family who respected me and my boundaries enough to give me the space that I needed. This year I am just so content!!! I woke up in a great ass mood! I am genuinely happy today. I have everything I need. Sure, I could use a house and a million dollars. But I have my necessities. I have gas in my car. I just had lunch so I have food in my belly! I have a job where I feel like I can genuinely grow and it will help me to pursue my career goal of being a medical examiner. (Though I met some amazing people at my previous job, whom I see being in my life for a long time, I didn't feel like there was much growing to be done and that's ok). I ALSO PASSED MY EXAM! I have a mom who bought me breakfast this morning and who just makes my whole life better!! I have a grandma who STAY TRYNA PLAY ME but I would stop a moving train for!! I have siblings who I wanna throw out the window but I'd run downstairs to catch them before they fall lol I have friends who, although some may be far, have my back and my best interests at heart!! They always make sure I'm good. And they are patient with me when I mess up like when I don't communicate like I should! And yes my depression is still there lurking in the back of mind, telling me that I have all these problems so I shouldn't be happy. But idk something about this year that just feels different!! I'm in a different space mentally and emotionally. I'm learning to take care of me. I started doing my own hair. Gonna learn makeup next. Reading more again and gonna start coloring again!! I say all this to say "Tasha, I am proud of how far you've come and though you're terrified about the future, for today we're content! Happy Tasha Appreciation Day" 🥰🥰🥰💙💙💙 #WeHadToWearTheDoryScrubsToday #Happy27thToMe https://www.instagram.com/p/CP_3bwgn2hbukj2Qkadf8rs3gMbJl01nRsDdsg0/?utm_medium=tumblr
