#hard relationships

[thevibrationsofmeselfd]

[makotomichi]

Relationships can be hard

Eren knocks on Levi's door, gets in after permission

Levi: Are you here as my subordinate?

Eren: No, this is personal.

Levi: I'll ask you to leave then, don't wanna talk right now.

The next day

Eren: Hange asked me to give you this.

Levi: *keeps on working* You can put it on my desk.

Eren: *does as said, tensely stands looking at Levi*

Levi: *sighs, stops working, crosses his arms, doesn't look at Eren* Spit it out.

Eren: I'm sorry. I really didn't mean to push you.

Levi: I know.

Eren: I didn't realize I was going off your limits.

Levi: I also know that.

Eren: But i-it's not about it I-I wanna talk about.

Levi: *frowns, looks at Eren*

Eren: I-I can't change what I did, even if it disgusts me that I hurted you like that. I can only say that I'll be careful from now on if... if...

Levi: *camly gets up* If what?

Eren: If... you're still ok with me.

Levi: *reaches out his hand, lands it on Eren's hair, slowly goes down to his cheek* Of course I am.

Eren: *surprised, nervously giggles, hides some stubborn tears with his arm* How so easily?

Levi: *hugs him* We're both learning. I'm also not easy to deal with and not easy to read. You just-

Eren: Doesn't matter, I'm still to blame.

Levi: Maybe *lets go of Eren* But I wouldn't be mad forever. I wasn't mad to begin with. I just couldn't face you right away, it'd be no good.

Eren: I was so scared I'd lose you for what I did...

Levi: Idiot. Relationships are hard, no matter how you put it. I'm just gonna need some time to...

Eren: I know. I'll be patient.

Levi: Hm... Thanks. Now go before I have to explain myself to four-eyes.

Eren: Oh, Hange will kill me *prepares to leave*

Levi: Eren?

Eren: *turns back,is surprised by a kiss on the lips*

Levi: This is still ok. You also can come back after being dismissed.

Eren: *gratefully smiles* I will.

[femology]

[thevibrationsofmeselfd]

I've got to learn to let go of things I cannot control...

[hmbl1]

I do not know

What I thought

That we would figure it out together

Not so far apart

But I just see you silent

Trying to escape, to evacuate

I do not know what to do

Or how to be here for you

So I try to do me

But you once gave me you

And I gave you me

It’s hard to be alone

Just assuming and excusing me

Gives us no chance to be

Will you ever truly try to work with me?

I still have faith in you

But I do not know what to do…

[feeling-loved-again-blog]

Miss you...

I haven’t been able to see you and be with you as your girlfriend for over a month now. I am seriously missing you now.  

I miss the cute things. I miss the cuddles, kisses, and the stupid things we would do like taking selfies together. One of the simple things I miss the most is being able to hold your hand and treat you like my boyfriend in public. I miss being yours. 

I miss the simple things. I miss your smile. I always loved looking at your smiling face and knowing that it is mine to look at for the rest of my life. I miss how safe I always feel when I am in your arms. I will never be able to match that feeling I get when I am in your arms. I miss being able to cuddle up to you and lay on your chest. The feeling of you breathing underneath me and being able to feel and hear your heart beat though your chest reminds me that the person I love, loves me just as much or more than I do. 

I miss the things we would do together. The thing we used to do that I miss the most is make food together. We have our minds just make amazing recipes and make an amazing dish. The part before making the food is going to the store to buy the ingredients. I miss going through the isles looking for the food we need and making jokes and being ourselves along the way. The last thing I miss that is one of the reasons I realized that I fell in love with you in the first place is singing together. I miss singing with you so much. Our voices together just make me so happy. Singing with you will always be one of my favorite things to do. 

Hiding this is getting hard when I am back at home with my family and half of them don’t know that we are together and in love. I can’t just leave to go see you without having my parents question me. I can’t go alone because it would be “weird” for my parents. In their eyes, having a person who is a little bit older than me as a best friend is “wrong.” 

I miss you so fucking much. I can’t wait till I can hold you one more time. I absolutely can not wait till I get back to school and I can live my life how I want to and I can actually treat you like my boyfriend and see you and maybe even stay with you for a weekend just so we can be a couple again and be as happy as can be. 

I miss you. 

[annamariajacobson]

what is that strange feeling?

i'm sorry but that post also gonna be about my love story, as i can name it so. some days ago i was dancing with him. i'm not sure but i think it's not a friendship from my side. he was so confident and strong and handsome and ...and. so it's unforgettable moment and thanks goodness it wasn't at last time.

[annamariajacobson]

Love - Frank Sinatra

U know... I've been thinking about all that situation and now realize my feelings are not so strong to Alex as i thought. So now, coming back Alek I can surely say even after one year i couldn't see him i'm still in love with him. and it's so pity and maybe for me it's a shame and i don't know what matter with me. how that filling could be alive after so many years of tortures? why all that happened? two days ago he visited me and u know, i was the happiest woman on the whole world))) that day was perfect, the best in that fucking year. so what shall i do?