ngl
i do miss you
but i don't miss the way our friendship would turn
you were my best friend for nearly nine years, and we always fought
always argued
always got pissed at each other
but you know what
i still loved the shit out of her because she was practically my sister
but she's moved on and is having a much better life
she has a job
she's paying for her own things
and i couldn't be more proud of where she's gotten herself
i honestly doubted she would get employed
but there she is
working at mcdonald's
it may be a shitty job, but god damn
you go girl
you're proving everyone wrong and getting somewhere
i really hope that one day we can catch up and at least be on some sort of common ground
but i'll be patient
and i'm sorry for treating you so awfully
you have no idea how much it haunts me that i did all of that to you
but the reason i pushed you away so quickly was so that you wouldn't be sad when i died when trying to kill myself
so it would be easier for you to cope
because it's easier to hate someone than to get over a death
you deserve the best and i'm still so proud of you
