5:12 am
I made such a mess of my life…
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5:12 am
I made such a mess of my life…
I'm literally shaking, idek why, I slowly start to think I'm not strong anymore
I really can’t stand to just do nothing anymore. I either need to be working or out driving somewhere.
Ugh
Hate it how lately my thoughts keep me up at night...tonight it's "let's think about that book your mom use to read all the time called 'I'll Love You For Always' and then let's think about how one day you'll have to bury her...thanks brain...tears were just what I needed...sigh
Nagging anxiety thoughts. :,( My brain keep reminding me of things: "Hey! Do you remember that time when your mom forced you to take influenza vaccine shot and you got that fever and couldn't go to your friend's birthday party? Yeah? And if you had arrived just 5 minutes later you wouldn't have got it and you would had been able to go. Then again why didn't you just simply lie to your mom that you already got the vaccine? noooo you had to be a good kid and tell the truth!!"
...please just shut up my brain. ;(
do u ever get that deep thought about what if...."what if my art isnt good enough for the world?" "what if what i want to do with my life isnt really what i want to do?" "what if im wasting my time in college and money on something i wont find a job in?" "what if i never really get to find a job that ill really enjoy and make stuff that i love?" what if's about life after college is really depressing and frightening.......
Help. A song I heard reminded me of ST.