#hauntingjournal

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I haven't felt good in a while

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Went to a physiatrist, and i dont feel okay, ahahah. I feel so lost 💫

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I hate how much my emotions n dumb brain affects those around me in such a negative manner. I wish to be forgotten. No longer No se wasting. away, torturing those just trying to live.

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My heart aches

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I feeeeel so tired...l just need to plop in my bed & sleep. RAHH

I plan to try & actually take some proper photos of my hair to start tracking the different styles I end up going through. In the past, when I was growing up, I always ended up deleting all my photos.. oh, how I regret it now. Curse the undiagnosed brain.

Im so lucky my bsf had some stored away, or I'd be left with only three or four pictures of my past hairstyles!

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My head is pounding. My chest is heavy, with a dark cloud of tension filling the void. Will i ever be free of this internal suffering? Will I ever know what it's like to feel emotionally regulated? I long for support and to be suffocated by love.

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It's been years since I could get my nails done due to jobs ect, I'm so happy right now. Even with the amount of stress around me. In this moment I can breathe.

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Ive been so all over the place, but I'm trying to push myself to doodle more. I always try to complete works. When i should just be enjoying the process like i used toooooooooo... goshhh i need a art groupppp