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♟ for something my muse admires
Another thing he admires, simpler and less to do with his issues? Gaming and coding ability.
Noiz is very confident in his own skill - he knows what he's capable of, and he doesn't back down from a challenge exactly because he knows that he'll be able to work past it. It's entertaining, it burns away time, and it's useful to him, to his world and his day-to-day life.
On the rare occasions he meets someone who is better at it than he is, he admires them. He admires their skill, and sets as goal to get better than they are - and that is how he learned how to do those things to begin with. Constantly challenging himself by finding the ones who were the best at it and working hard to get better at it than they could ever be.
The admiration then dies down, so sadly, he doesn't actually admire many people currently.