i've abandoned the only people who ever really made me happy. i've been getting worse throughout these past few years and doing that hasn't helped even the slightest bit. i'm an incredibly huge dumbass who doesn't understand that without these people, i would probably, most likely be dead. (as over-dramatic as that sounds it's the truth.)
but now it's happening again, i'm losing everything and everyone and that's my own fault. i would run away to the other side of the world if it meant i could have it all back.
you know when you meet those people and you think to yourself "meeting them was the best thing that could have ever happened."? that's them. they're flawless in every sense of the word.
i've been heading down hill this past year, when it seemed like all was going as smooth as it could.
i'm leaving myself to be completely honest, i dont even know what it's like to be me anymore. we all know what that's like i think. but that's no excuse for me skipping out, making false promises, and acting like a complete idiot.
this is me attempting an apology, you don't have to accept, in fact i doubt you will because i'm a total ass. but i miss you, more than anything.
i'm sorry.
