cont. from here ! / feat. @hcldhope, gwen stacy .
eventually it's. . . just going to stay that way. the last words hit him, hard as heavy head rests back against the wall for support, unshed tears shining bright in the eyes while remaining motionless on the spot, breathless. breaking gwen's heart was the last thing peter wanted. he loved her, he really did, with every fiber of his being. since the first time he laid eyes on her all those years ago, gwen stacy had been everything he wanted. and yet, couldn't have anymore. as much as he hated it, as much as it hurt, literally teared his soul apart and prevented him from sleeping at night; there were far more important things than his love for her. ▬▬ like the promise made to her dying father. like her own life, daily put at risk just by being with him and eventually related to spider - man; two sides of the same coin, a big part of who he was now. the path that had been chosen to follow and uncle ben's final words, they just rang louder than ever in his head: ‘ with great power comes great responsibility. ’ a moral obligation to sacrifice his own personal life for the greater good, the right thing to do. he had to remind himself that, every day, for his heart just told him, it relentlessly screamed otherwise. especially now, gazing deep into the arresting green of gwen's eyes. ❛ i just. . . ❜ shaking his head to clear the sudden throughly - wanted thoughts away, appear outwardly composed meanwhile heart fights against mind. ❛ i can't, gwen. your father, i. . . i keep seeing him, everywhere i go. because i broke his promise, to keep you safe. ▬▬ and that's killing me. i can't. . . i can't do that to him. to you. ❜ he couldn't lose her too, go on without her. just the mere thought of it made his blood run cold, the most scared he's ever been. ❛ i'm sorry. ❜
