It’s 10:30 am, I’ve been awake two hours, and already today I have blamed God for leaving me repeatedly to my own anxieties and obsessions, blamed him for not caring, doubted his goodness and faithfulness,
And then slammed head-first into what I believe to be a gift sent from him showing me in a very deep way that he does love, does care, hasn’t left, and is, in fact, deeply caring and good and faithful.
The very thing I thought proved he was “forsaking me once again”, upon further investigation, proved quite the contrary.
Dear Lord, I’m very sorry, help me remember this, and if this ever happens again please slap me upside the head.
Learn from me please. He’s good and faithful and loving and caring, and if we ever don’t see that, we need to trust.