#heaart-talk

[heaart-talk]

I always felt like there is too much in my heart for a single person to handle, too much darkness for a single person to see and comprehend. I don’t know, I had felt numb for years, heartbreak after heartbreak broke my will to live at times. I have friends whom I love, family that care about me, no matter the differences, but somehow it always felt like I am walking alone, that life is something that I needed to live alone. I tried to give happiness because I knew how it felt like to not have that. I try to hide my darkness, not wanting to engulf anyone else. I can understand a lot of people, but nobody understood me, nobody saw me, until you did. You saw through me at times, you cared at least I thought you did, with you I felt alive and happy, for once I let myself go, hoping I’d finally get a chance to experience my share of happiness and for a bit I did, but as if happiness has an aversion to me, I am back to the same place, not wanting to look into the future, despising the present and hurt by the past. Tell me where do I run off to, to escape it all.

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"We say we won't but we do, going through the same path again and again, hoping to find something new."

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"I have been the most helpless with you. Nobody else has made me feel so weak, yet powerful at the same time."

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"Talk when it's uncomfortable. Specially then, it's needed the most."

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" I cannot deny the love I have for you, but I realised it long time ago that you don't deserve it. "

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Tell me story, a story about you and me, a story that ends a little differently. The one where we don’t have to walk away, where we just stay. Where you stay close to me, and we can go out for movies. One where we watch the night sky, and then we look into each other’s eyes. Where we hold hands and never let go, and if you’ll leave today, I know I’ll see you tomorrow.

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"What I adore more than anything else is the simplicity in people, when they don't pretend to be more or less than what they are but just their natural self, when they wear their scars proudly, when they have found peace within themselves in this noisy world and the outside voices don't bother them anymore, they know what they want and are going after it, unconcerned about the results. I think it's beautiful, people not hiding themselves and showing their true self, that's the real beauty that imprints on hearts."

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You are so gentle with my heart,

You tread your fingers gently on my scars,

And call them a piece of art.

I don't feel crazy with you,

I am not afraid to say the words I have kept guarded for so long,

It's like coming back to a place I have known all along.

You tell me that I am not a survivor,

Whatever battles I fought wasn't my fault,

You tell me I am a warrior.

You give me love but never ask for anything in return,

You make me question why did I ever run away in the first place.

Why don't I remember the hurt anymore,

Just your pretty face.

You listen to my words closely as if you know they mean the world to me,

You keep them safe in your heart so no one but you can see.

You look me in the eyes and i feel naked all of sudden,

As if you can see the parts of me that I have kept hidden.

You hold my hand as if you never want to let go.

My demons don't scare you,

You say you have demons of your own.

You give me silence when there's a chaos inside of my head,

You tell me how being broken is my strength not something bad.

I say, stay away from me I'll only break you heart,

You say that you know me and that i'd rather break my own before I do that.