#head!cannon

[raewritesfiction]

Such a Valter vibe….

[acklelantern]

My wincest angst head!cannon is that the boys didn't admit their feelings until the last day of Dean's life. Sam and Dean both knew he was going to hell and that the chances of getting Dean out was slim. So Dean finally told Sam how he really felt and upon finding out their feelings were mutual they spent time making each other feel good before time was up. All because they thought it would be the last time they ever saw each other, so when Dean came back,  Sam was shocked. And that's why he reacted the way he did, and hugged Dean the way he did, remembering those last few hours he thought he would never experience again. 

[hakyeonrk]

☯ : Genderbent headcanon

lady!hakyeon would aim for KT Entertainment. She'd be drawn to the flashiness of the largest company. and just like Hakyeon as he is wnats TRC for the eventual power that being a top artist would provide, she would use her business knowledge (learning directly under her dad's tutelage, since if Hak were a woman, he would have a much better relationship with her father) to get ahead and eventually take over the entertainment industry.

[hakyeonrk]

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Hakyeon's mood feeds on the people around him. He needs to be around other people to keep his head up. Even if he's busy writing or something else that he's doing on his own, he'll hang around a crowded place. 

Subsequently he doesn't spend a lot of time in his apartment.

[hakyeonrk]

006; he's only affectionate to people he really likes.

While appearing to be very friendly to most, Hakyeon isn't the easiest person to become close to. Though awful at snap judgments, often times he bases entire relationships on those quick choices. If he decides he doesn't like you, sure he'll be nice, but at arms length. In conversation he might be smiling and nodding on the outside, but really he's thinking about how long until he's moving on to the next thing he needs to do. 

Really the few people he likes, and views as his current friends are the ones he gets touchy with. The behavior has become very rare to see since his move, but sometimes people get to observe the warmer side of him. The kind that involves holding hands with his friends or falling asleep on them 

[hakyeonrk]

005; he has panic attacks

The first one he'd ever had was ,May 13th, 2013 a now infamous day in his life. He'd found out that day, walking into the take the CSAT that not only had his first love and best friend had not only played with him, but had shared this fact with several classmates.  He'd just gone to turn off his phone when he saw he'd missed about 15 text messages. Some friends, some...not so friendly people. Wanting to know what was going on, was that really him in that photo, mocking him for being so stupid. 

He doesn't remember the rest of that day. Just being shoved by a janitor who found him in a daze in the closet. It fundamentally changed him. He became more closed off, less obnoxious and less friendly. The rest of the school break he stayed at home, the one time his younger sister tried to get him to go out he'd had another panic attack. 3 more times it took before he realized he couldn't be around these people anymore.

When he'd first brought up moving away his parents were disappointed, thinking he was running from their problems, but eventually they agreed it was the best choice for him at that point. His sister came home with the news of his classmates university options- finding out that very first love of his did fantastically on the exam and would be heading to a top university. 

He's a soft hearted person but since his move to Seoul he's worked to fix it, believing that if he doesn't care so much, the panic attacks will stop. 

[hakyeonrk]

004; he only speaks Korean

Although Hakyeon is a smart person, it's a subject he's just never been super comfortable with. He did enough to pass English classes in school, but he really spends more time focusing on other things. The fact stresses him out a little, but not enough to actually add it to his already packed schedule.