Send me ’ memento mori ‘ and I’ll write a drabble of how my muse would mourn yours…
(Sasha & Aedus for pain reasons; evil laughter)
It was as though the sun forgot to rise the morning she didn't. And every, blurring morning since. Drizzling rain turned the cemetery's ground to mud, and tires kicked it up into a spray as they spun, fighting for purchase even as they rolled to a slow stop. Aedus didn't want to open the door. If he opened it, then he would need to step out, and he would need to look... the casket already shone in his periphery, gleaming in the reflection of rain running off it. If he looked, it was real.
But, the door clicked. Looking down, he realized his own hand had opened it, numb, automatic. The sound of other cars squelching to a stop behind him, the resounding clicks of other mourners pushing their doors open, it forced him to do the same. His shoes sank into the ground. At least it gave him an excuse to move slowly, the mud. Each step forward felt a slog.
His hand finally reached for the casket. So cold, as she'd been. He had to swallow before he spoke... he knew he needed to say a few words, no matter how difficult, no matter how badly he wanted only to scream, and crumple, and implode.
" Sasha... " Was... was... the word felt like bile on his tongue; Aedus couldn't bring himself to say it, " An incredible mother. An incredible light, extinguished far too soon. I don't... I don't know precisely what the world will be like without her, but I know it will be duller, dimmer. The colors will pale. The air will be empty without her laugh. I believe I will always search for her smile in the sunshine... when it shines, again. There is nothing... " Nothing that would ease this pain. He could speak no longer. Emotion exploded with the shaking of his shoulders, and he shoved himself away... let someone else pay their respects in a droning voice he couldn't hear, couldn't understand, not now. Just noise. Just noise in the rain, the damnable rain pelting wood he didn't want to see.