2011-2013-2017 . . It's an incredible feeling to be free of the guilt that used to come with every meal. It's amazing to see the things that you're body is capable of when given the right amount of fuel. Fear and guilt used to take over my mind when it came to food. I used to blame myself for allowing myself to get that small. Now I look back and realize it was something I lost control over. Eating disorders along with every mental illness are not a choice. Some fight in silence. Some spend their entire life in and out of negative states and remain sick. Some lose their lives because they can't take it anymore. Mental illness is not a joke. Mental illness is not a choice, however; Recovery is. Choosing life is. Choosing to fight is not easy, but nothing in my life has ever been worth more than choosing to live. . . . . #worldmentalhealth #transformationtuesday #sicktofit #healthoverthin #legday #gains #fitness #fit #aenation #teambrian (at UFC GYM)