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[lalexxiaart]

Heart Beets! ❤️

any slime rancher players out there 😅

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Hey!! like this, reply to this, or acknowledge it in some way if you read this Please. Please.

this is a incredibly belated post that I’ve avoided making because of paranoia, I don’t feel like starting drama, & just don’t have the energy to deal with any of this. 

(CW: abuse mention, alcohol mention, drug mention)

if you’ve been following me since like mid January or before then than you probably know of/heard of Ken/Kendall (tumblr user elsbians) who was my friend/qpp. Basically if you follow them, are friends with them, &/or interact with them. please don’t follow me, interact with me, &/or be friends with me. if we are mutuals & you want to continue following/interacting/being friends with them, Please just block me. this goes for irl/school friends too I’m serious.

me & ken had known each other for 5 years (since September of 2011) we were online friends most of that time & then about the end June 2015 they moved to my city & we were irl friends. throughout our friendship they have emotionally abused me & have even admitted to doing so. what the rest of this post is gonna be talking about is the last fight we had & how we stopped being friends but there is a lot more abusive stuff they did in the past.

We got in a fight at the end of January they talked to their qpp viktoriya (tumblr user coruscantt) (also same applies to her abt following/interacting/being friends with me or her) about it & screenshotted it & sent it to me. I asked them to stop sending me stuff because I was starting to have a breakdown (& they had just left my house when this happened & we had been drinking & smoking so I wasn’t sober so it wasn’t helping) they gave viktoriya my number & she started sending me stuff. she vagued abt me saying I should drop dead & stuff & then sent me anon hate. I blocked her number, asked them why they sent her my number, & that is when it really kind of started into a fight. 

they said that I was abusive to them & that viktoriya helped them realize this. we fought for a while & whatever I said they took it as me trying to excuse myself, so I kind of just gave up & the fight ended & we p much stopped talking. Fast forward to February 17 we were both invited to the same party & I said I wasn’t going to go if they were going to come at all & then they started texting me & continued to text me even though i didn’t reply (taking advice from one of our old friends not to do so because it wouldn’t be a good idea) & we stopped being friends after that.

since then they’ve found me on okcupid & super liked me on tinder to get my attention. they’ve always been very aggressive & since the cut off they have been even more so.

I feel unsafe posting in general & esp about even saying this stuff esp since they’ve talked about wanting me to die. & IK this is leaving out A LOT of details if you want to know more or see screenshots or w/e ask me off anon. I don’t feel like having a lot of the details public rn.

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me: haha i think i like 2 ppl maybe? who knows me: *has had 3 dreams in the past month or 2 that r p much 1 of my crushes tellin me they like me*

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this girl on tinder just called me beautiful n im like haha that's good but also shakin bc idk how to interact w ppl

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i’m thinkin abt it n i bought a cassette but i have nothin to listen to it w when it gets here

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i have to leave in like an hour and i still havent showered and i’m just sittin here eatin pomegranate seeds

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ive been up for 15 hrs on 5 hrs of sleep n like almost no food until just now n ??? life is wild