Has anyone ever questioned why we're wired the way we are, or why we find other things interesting compared to how we think the "norm" is for sexual interests? Like hearts for example and having a strong urge to want to listen or feel the heartbeat of someone you love or desire. I've always questioned it. I've always thought I was extremely weird for having such a different interest, so much so I've never even spoken about it to anybody. I've always heard of people being made fun of or ridiculed for similar things; for example someone who likes feet, being tickled or stomach noises or whatever... So keeping that stuff on the down low was a must.
Now I want to share a story of how I found out I was a cardiophile, and it starts when I was a child. I remember when I was a toddler and I barely had any understanding of how life worked or the world in general. I had no idea what kept us alive or anything about the human body or anything of the sort. I always had the desire to be as close to someone as possible, and I used to always lay on my babysitter's chest as a baby and I actually remember hearing her heart beating while I was falling asleep many times on her. Believe it or not, I remember having dreams in those moments and I never knew what it was I was listening to because I was so young, but I was in love with it and never wanted to move from where I was... Listening to a heart. As I got older I began to learn more about what it was and what was drawing me to become fascinated with someone's heartbeat. Now a very important moment around that time that really engraved my interest was when I watched "The Grinch" live action for the first time. I remember watching it to the end and they mention his heart being small many times throughout the movie, so obviously I was locked in watching what was happening. Nearing the end of the movie when the Grinch finally starts trying to save Christmas, there's the scene when his heart finally grows three sizes and you can see it beating out of his chest. From that point forward that cemented my peculiar love for the heart and I hadn't seen anyone's heartbeat like that until much later in life and of course that only further solidified that I was in fact a cardiophile. Now despite all of that, I still kind of retain the same type of love that I did when I was a baby. I don't desire any dark desire for someone's heart. I've always just loved laying my head down and falling asleep to it and the feeling of the beats under my ear. Even though my interest is more on the innocent side I still thought I would feel ashamed if I ever shared that to someone or if they found out.
