#heartpains

[elliottorrin]

Got to see this great film last night with my love @leah.twinkle, and couldn’t have timed it better with a hard day. It is a great thing to see when everything in the world is heavy and hard, it will likely make you cry, but will also remind of the importance of love, acceptance and remembering our childlike self. I’m glad it is Friday and I’m hoping to find a little space of peace this weekend to rest my heart after a long week. Grateful to have love, acceptance and places that feel safe in my life. 🦄🌈😴 #tired #love #heartpains (at Cinema 21)

[kyuutes]

It's like I'm mostly over it, but still hurts lol

[entahiz-elyoum-blog]

oh jeez there goes that feeling again... 

[lycamp]

This one started because I wanted a steak

The sun barely touched my eyes today, so I decided to glance outside the window. I was blinded for a mere second and then I saw something at the gate outside. A black haired beauty with her eyes on her phone. Amazed, I stared at her a bit longer than I'd like to admit. She finally looked up after making kissing and pouting faces at her phone with her pink shaded lips and saw me in the window. Embarrassed, I struggled to look away, and I do mean struggled because she was stunning. I could hear her laugh and could feel her smile. My heart leaped. The next day I was on my way to the train. Guess who I happened to see? She was alone again, and waiting for the train across from mine. She saw me, but I couldn't tell if she remembered me. The cold air rushed by my nose as I began to stare, accidentally I swear, at her again. She glanced up at me and pull out her phone. I was sure that she didn't notice me until she began making pouting faces into her phone again. Then she made a kissy face, but then she looked at me and gave me a wink. My heart leaped again, this time into my throat and I let out an audible cough.

My usual awkwardness numbed like the tip of my nose, fingers, ears, and toes couldn't stop me from doing what I did next. I ran down, well I walked while she could still see me and then started sprinting when she couldn't, to go on to the other platform. As I ascended the stairs I saw her holding her phone up like she was taking a picture. I looked up and saw her smile and say "Cheese." I finally got to see her up close. The sunshine reflected off of the snow acted as a spotlight for the beauty I had before me. Her eyes were Hazel, and looked to be shaded by an artist using a graphite pencil. Her silken, straight hair shined brightly and revealed a natural black color. Skin so fair that is seemed like she was made from snow covered her high cheek bones and her nose was colored rose due to the cold. She leaned into me because I was staring again and her shoulder touched mine. "I have your picture but not your number. We should remedy that."

I fell in love with her as soon as she used the word remedy. We went on a date that weekend. I ended up at her place, oh she has her own place score, and she said I'm going to help her cook dinner for the two of us. Amazed, I began staring at her...again. She patted me on the cheek and told me I should stop acting like she's so special. I grabbed her arm as she walked away.

"Can you even see yourself? You are special."

She blushed, and I felt like a prince king God.

We ate that night like a couple in love, next to each other and slyly looking up and stealing food off of each others' plates. It was real magic.

Then it was time for me to get off the train and get to school.

[mr-mirrors]

Your muse just witnessed my muse breaking down in tears. How does your muse respond?

It was a good long moment before Kagami could process the situation enough to even respond. He had never seen the other cry before. Never. He didn’t know why, either. And so, padding softly over to his friend, he sat himself down by the other’s side. Elbows resting on his knees, shoulders hunched over as he tried to get a look at the other’s face, Kagami sat there for a moment or two, just watching, wondering, trying to think up a way to talk to the other man.

He was at a loss for words, no doubt. He didn’t want to think about what could possibly have been so overwhelming for Danzo to actually break down. His friend was one of the strongest people he had ever known, so this…

Eventually, Kagami slid closer to the other; close enough that he was seated just an inch apart from the other. “Talk to me…" He hoped Danzo could hear him—

[konohawarhawk-archive]

His breath sucked in sharply, eyes narrowing as they darted to the man beside him, and there was a certain defensive anger in the motion, coming up in a harsh shield between them more effectively than any attack would have. Just as quickly, his body tensed, he looked away again, scrubbing at his face as he struggled to compose himself.

Humiliating.

[konohawarhawk-archive]

mrmirrors:

Kagami’s lips pressed together in a thin line when he felt that invisible wall go up between them. He frowned, almost angry himself, but collected himself just in time to sigh and let it go. Let it roll off his shoulders. There was no point calling the other out for it; Kagami understood why that wall was there.

That didn’t mean Kagami was going to leave things as they were, though.

"If you don’t tell me, I’m going to assume you asked some girl out and they refused you." Come on, Danzo.

He made a low noise of displeasure, aggressively turning back to him and lifting his chin a fraction, eyes still wet, but hard, his entire body tense. “Nothing so petty, if you would."

If nothing else, you managed to add anger to whatever was going on with him there Kagami, congrats.

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It was a terrible move, he will admit, but at least it got the other talking. "Then tell me." His voice was laced with concern, and the hardness in his friend's eyes didn't deter him from pushing the matter. Not too much, though-- he didn't want to push too much. He was going to try, but if the rock wouldn't budge, then he would give it some time.

This time, however, he reached for the man's shoulder and gently rested his hand there; as gentle as he could before giving it a light squeeze. "Is there anything I can do to help?" Besides being asked to leave, because that was not going to happen any time soon. If Danzo had been crying, then whatever the reason was was pretty serious, and that bothered him.

"Of course not. There's not anything to help Kagami." He pressed his lips tightly together and looked straight ahead, which was subsequently not at the Uchiha. He had no words to express this, not in the least, and he almost growled the rest of his reply. "It is simply something to get up and move past now, so you don't need to get involved."

There was a tenseness that didn't leave his spine though, and he didn't jerk away from the hand on his shoulder at least.

[aplethoraofphotos-blog]

Heartpains

Author's Note: This is an old journal entry that I discovered. I post it here for historical purposes. I hope that you can glean from my lessons.

My heart is yearning to leave this little town to pick up its pieces which were scattered throughout the world before my birth. It forgets that I too am seeking a life of excitement, but the largest part of my heart yearns for revival at home. I sustain my dreams right here as my girls play a mean defense on the soccer field and the guys play with their hearts under the lights on Friday nights.

Each day I see revival as their hearts are captivated by Christ’s love. Each day my heart is filled with joy as they make positive choices and sow seeds for the harvest of a healthy life. Soon we will cross borders and sail overseas as we travel the world. Find peace in today, my heart. You would not have room for everything you have today if you had all your pieces. Breathe deeply in your beautiful small town life, and live richly with the time you have left.