I never thought I would know or even understand a love like this. To be sitting here at 1:48 in the morning on the phone with my beautiful girlfriend. You know, this person that has a family that you become connected with, you become a part of their family and you are close and it's special. This kind of love brings you so much joy, it's often time hard to describe. People can try to capture it in film and tv, but it will never be done. You just can't. It's sacred in a way. You have to experience it first hand. Don't let the movies and shows spoil it for you. Go out there and make your own love. Don't restrict yourself.
Sometimes I think back to the day when I met my girlfriend, I think back to all the other things I could have done that day. Things that would have kept me from meeting her. Fuck all of those other things, you know? Sure I was straight when I met her. Sure I wasn't ready for another relationship when I met her. Sure she lives 160 some miles away. Sure to this day, my parents won't even acknowledge her. But hey, we're happy together because we are a part of each other's lives. She is my family and I am her family. That's the way things work with us. I never knew that I would be laying here listening to someone snore on the phone while they slept, but I love it. And I wouldn't trade it for anything else. Except for maybe to be beside her. But we'll get our time.
I write this to remind all of you out there to not be afraid and to not limit yourself. Limits hold you back, and when you hold yourself back, you eliminate future memories and dreams and futures.
To my girl:
I know that things aren't easy right now. We have so many forces driving against us, but I promise you that we'll get through it. I think that we're both too stubborn to let this go, anyway. I love you, babe. And I can't wait to talk to you in the morning.
