growing up is realising that we have free will. you can create that playlist right now, you can travel, get a job, quit the job, regret it. growing up is realising that life moves by itself, yet we create our reality. we can say we want it and have it, or we can wish and count shooting stars. we can eat the food we're not supposed to, feel bad, feel sad, listen to the same song on repeat. we are allowed to feel, we are meant to feel, we are not meant to repress emotions. we are made to feel joy, and love, and sadness, and experience it all with pain and wonder. we are made to be in awe of that building we never noticed until now. growing up is realising we can change our aesthetic, we can hate the notions of aesthetics or love them, or maybe just feel neutral. we are allowed to feel neutral. we are allowed to do something illegal (i'm not condoning it) or follow every rule and still be happy either way. growing up is realising is doesn't fucking matter. we can listen to that song and not do what our brain tells us to. if we want to, we can
