Jun 23, 2023
The fact though that this is the second person that they've traveled with that's betrayed them is... oof
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The fact though that this is the second person that they've traveled with that's betrayed them is... oof
Maybe I’ll vent a little anyway.
But yeah I had major anxiety about seeing someone on the internet who isn’t my friend anymore and also blocking anxiety because to me blocking is a pretty big thing. It’s basically like “I don’t want you in my life.” I know some people block for p much everything but when it’s someone you know, it’s like okay thanks for not talking to me. So things about blocking remind me of that. I find it really rude to block friends, in a nutshell. It’s a shitty thing to do.
And ofc because I’m me I ended up with all these other feelings about things that happened that STILL aren’t resolved because people are just so afraid of actually having a real conversation that they’re willing to let friendships die just to avoid facing some hard stuff. And people have told me I’m not owed closure and stuff like that but you know what? I think closure is something you give someone you were close to in most circumstances.
I’ve been told I don’t have the right to be mad. But I do have the right to be mad. I was hurt. Of course I would be mad.
Well wow didn't that just make me feel like shit
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Atum, Loki
Atum: I push everybody away, I can’t let anyone in. I don’t even know whether I would want to if I could but sometimes it makes you pretty lonely. Another imperfection is my great delight in alcohol that seemingly spirals out of control.
Loki: Let me think… maybe the one time i put a snail on Marlene McKinnons chair before she set down, that was a nice one. The girl can scream… There were so many though, it’s hard to remember…
The thing about someone showing interest in me is that I never believe that they actually mean it. Like for all I know they could be laughing about it with someone
How do people just trust someone? I only trust maybe five people in the whole world, and except for one, they are all family.
I feel like I could go crazy thinking about all the girls you could have loved, all the girls you might love some day, and all the girls you might love right now, even though you are here in my arms.