#hello uni

[unseen-beautyy]

The fact that I’m not in a car with a beautiful boy blasting bad bunny in this beautiful weather is a CRIME

[theperksofbeingacauliflovver]

12 more days and I'm outta here we tenk god🙅🏾🙅🏾

[beenzinoism]

i have to go back tmrw. i :) am :) going :) to :) kill :) MYSELF :))) !!!!

[rebelicca]

Wow, wow, oh my and gosh.*

Today is the day. I'm back at university, back into the throes of academic life; a single vein flowing to the pulsing heart that is my expansive campus. 

After the longest, worst weekend of my life, I think I need to take a moment to reflect on the summer that was; the many highs, the (recent) crushing lows, and perhaps one of the most influential periods in my life to date. 

*Side note: I apologise if this title seems misleading or conveys an inaccurate tone. I just feel like I'm dripping with relief at the moment, and this is the most "accurate" way in which to express that feeling.

I have had a troubling last 48 hours, to say the least. I predicted many weeks ago that the final weekend before my return would be a difficult one. I deal poorly with change, particularly when it entails saying farewell to endless weeks of free time, spending my hours with the ones I love most, of social gatherings, a carefree mind and a happy heart. Of course, returning to uni doesn't spell the complete end of joy, but I was - and am - concerned about the reality of how often I will get to do things simply because I enjoy them. Now that I'm back to full time study, it will be hard. But I thrive on the challenge! But I digress.

Over the last weekend, I made a silly decision regarding my studies. I spent the entire weekend stressing over what a mistake I'd made. Those closest to me know that I basically allow feelings of doubt to cloud my entire being. Once I'm sad or worried or anything even slightly negative, those feelings snowball and encompass me. It's a really bad habit. 

Without going into too much detail, the problem I created for myself (which my problems so often seem to be) has been resolved to an even greater degree than I could ever have predicted. Trust me; I ran over every possibility in my mind before finally seeking a solution first thing this morning. I thought I'd tackled the situation from every angle, but in reality, I was unable to predict the helpfulness and compassion of those with the power to help me. The relief was indescribable. I was literally skipping down the street, smiling so much my cheeks hurt. I hope I learn from this outrageous situation, and never get myself into such a stressful mess again!

On a brighter note, I have to say that the past three or so months have been overall wonderful. I worked a lot (and somehow have little money to show for it? Sigh), but I also played a lot. I explored unfamiliar places. Bonded with friends, both new and old. I learnt to embrace the familiar anxious thrill that fills me when I try new things, and I realised that this sensation is ultimately more fulfilling than daunting. My health is better than ever, and I'm marvelling at how much I can do with a body I've never truly appreciated. Most importantly, I spent a lot of time with my favourite person in the world, and somehow managed to fall even more in love with him. When things are so easy and natural between us, it's hard not to.

I wish all my fellow students nothing but love, light, motivation, happiness and success for the semester ahead. I finally feel emotionally ready to face it, and I hope it marks the start of another great chapter in my complicated, crazy, roller coaster ride of a life.

[gillett-fusion]

this is my last night in my own bed for 3 months oh shit

[sweaterpawsmxchael]

Today was my last day of summer. It is currently 8:40 PM and I have my first class tomorrow at 10:00 AM. Good bye freedom, sleep, and happiness. 

[yuucky]

I got admitted!!!!!

[tinawiththeglasses]

I PASSED MY LEAVING EXAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!