Oct 1, 2024
I have this bullshit thing where, if I want to be alone, having someone else in that Space makes it so I absorb literally None of the relaxation
#tryin to enjoy the fire i started a few hours ago and ive absorbed none of it#cause RIGHT WHEN I GOT THE FLAMES GOING. OUT COMES MY FUCKING MOTHER IN LAW.#please for fucks sake can i have. any time outside alone. any at all.#hello. please.#its like my idiot trauma brain cant Relax#because shes not a safe person#actually probably due to the fact that she takes opportunities to startle me whenever she can#(which means the chances have dramatically dropped because im Hyper Aware of her now)