Forensic Files, grilled cheese, peacock earrings, dragonfly necklace from mom, glowing labradorite, trying to not PANIC PANIC PANIC about going to San Rafael on Friday for my disability hearing. I hate being in the car. I hate people asking me questions. I hate fluorescent lighting, climbing stairs, not knowing where to park, not having my water bottle, not having my mints, going out without my stage makeup, etc etc. WHINE WHINE WHINE. (I'm terrified). On the way to therapy today I was behind a driver who was smoking some really rank weed. I was so distracted by how rank it was that I zoned out and followed them instead of taking my usual route. Thankfully I realized what I was doing when I was less than two miles off course. I guess it goes to show that you can fixate on negativity SO much that it literally gets you lost. #365dayswithdisability #dailylife #justlifethings #dysautonomia #ptsd #POTSie #actuallyocd #fibrowarrior #bipolarII #hellobrainfog