#hemera;talks

[814sun]

i managed to write 600 words in english, and this seems silly when everyone around me writes so well, but also i've been struggling so much to pass my writing-in-english block, and i'm just waiting from validation from my friends before i share anything, because i fear i'm just a shy and stressed child in that moment. 👉👈 (also for added context, the first time i properly wrote anything in english during the summer, i sent it to a friend (ex friend now tbf), who managed to change so much of it, it didn't feel like me anymore at all, it genuinely wasn't, and that added to the block A LOT.)

[814sun]

my tumblr activity right now is basically: open app ; look at things quickly ; end up mostly liking my close friends stuff and reblogging to support them if they posted something major ; usually seeing mj @f1watch and myth @minusninelives post an ask game, sending them asks for the game (sometimes words-vomiting in their asks, oopsie) ; maybe reblogging the game myself, forgetting about it next ; closing app. 🧍‍♀️

(in all seriousness, i wanna be more active on tumblr (and in reading fics and works!!), i'm genuinely trying, but when work is too busy during the week, i can't look at my phone and then my brain is dead. but, i want to and i'm trying, and i'm not forcing myself, just need to find the right balance 🙂‍↕️)

anyways, i was just feeling like yapping!!

[814sun]

thank you for everyone who sent me prompts for the "one ship + one word" game in my inbox <33 i just need to fight over my writer block (aka i feel terrible when i write in english, because i usually write in french) (and i'm audhd, so i struggle with struggling lol), but i'm getting inspired, so i'll try to tackle them soon!

[814sun]

Hemera!!!! you were one of my first friends on here and one of the first people I dared reach out to to hopefully kindle a friendship and look at us now <3 I’m so happy I decided to comment on your post and even more happy you decided to message me after. Love you <333

Also a question I have. I know you do a lot of role playing games. Do you have a favourite memory or maybe a thing you’ve learned about yourself while playing that you could share??

you just did a uno reverse, please. i'm the one that's gonna cry now. 😭 i've already told you how much i like you, but i'll repeat it after, i'm so happy we became friends. <3 as for roleplay, i have many favorite memories about it, including me meeting my bestfriend through it and being her maid of honour at her wedding years later 🩷 but also opening my own roleplay forum, based on star wars, that genuinely my baby for 7 years - we recently closed it, but i met so many amazing people though it, i have no regrets. as for things i learned about myself - to be fair, i grew up with roleplay, it's been 15 years and counting, and i think it definitely shaped who i am as a human being. it shaped the way i write, the way my imagination works, and i'm forever grateful for the day i stumbled upon it. even recently, it keeps teaching me things - but more importantly, it keeps bringing me friends, and that's a community - for all its rights and wrongs - that i care about a lot!

ask game

[814sun]

let me tell you, i need to make that good morning, but right now it's looking like hell and clownery.

[814sun]

i really need to get on with it, and make a proper pinned post with everything, since i have finally cleaned my theme. but that means i gotta go back through my tags and organise everything... that sounds like a plan for next week, since i'll have 4.5 days off.

[814sun]

sometimes, being ace and having important sex repulsion phases is pretty complicated in fandom spaces, not gonna lie.