#heregoeseverything

[amyandherbook]

Today marks the first words of a new project for me. This was a very hard because a lot of my brain is still focused on my other project but as I have relinquished that to my beta readers for the time being I am taking the opportunity to work on a completely different idea. #heregoeseverything #newproject https://www.instagram.com/p/B5_cJjpA43f/?igshid=1aykemm6xvdz6

[thethingsidoforausername]

Some things I wish I’d said

ATTENTION ALL HUMANS: My brain does this thing where it thinks deeply about a thing from multiple angles before giving me a conclusion. This is great for figuring out my beliefs over time or creating interesting things, but not so great when you hand me new information to analyze in the middle of a social interaction.  So here are some things I would have said if I could have frozen time long enough for my brain to get back to me with its analysis:

YOU: When I commented on the weeds in your yard on my way out of your house, I meant it as a compliment. I thought they were awesome, but you apologized for the state of your yard, as if it’s at all important.  I had honestly forgotten that most of society sees weeds as annoyances and eyesores instead of glorious green things that stubbornly exist on their own without any human effort (which is why I love them), but by the time I had sorted through that dissonance in my head, we’d said goodbye.

YOU: I was sitting next to you on an airplane and I saw you tweezing your cheeks, and I couldn’t figure out what you were trying to do.  You explained to me in a somewhat chagrined tone that you have so many little hairs on your face that you don’t even have to aim the tweezers, and I didn’t say anything because I couldn’t figure out why you thought you had to be embarrassed about your normal human peach fuzz that literally everyone has on their normal human faces.  No one can even see the peach fuzz, and who cares if they can?  Revel in your Mediterranean goddess beauty, woman.

YOU: You handed me a block of cheese and asked me to smell it to see if it was bad, and I bluescreened because you don’t smell real cheese to see if it’s bad, you look at it with your eyeballs to see if it’s growing things (and then you cut the growing things off and eat the rest).

YOU: We talked about the different ways you and I handle gore or other horror-genre movie clichés, and the discussion turned into a pretty heated disagreement.  What I didn’t know how to explain to you at the time was that it’s okay that you see it from a mechanical perspective with your technical mind, that you think about how they constructed that scene or that angle or that mask or that imaginary moment.  It is also okay that I see it from a story perspective with my creative mind, and from an emotional perspective with my empathetic mind.  It’s okay that instead of seeing the special effects, I see the terror of the character and feel the echoes of all the real human beings who have experienced real terror.  It’s okay that I see the metaphorical applications behind the monsters to the real life pain and tragedy that real humans deal with.  It’s okay that I see the real human pain of the panic before death or the heart-twisting, universe-rending horror of losing loved ones, even though the monster causing it in this scene isn’t real.  It’s okay that where you see ketchup, I see blood. It’s not something that I ‘need to grow out of.’

YOU: I wasn’t concerned about the tornado sirens because it’s just a test they run every other week or so. Yes, I know I couldn’t tell you exactly when it usually takes place so as to reassure you that this one was just a drill; I knew because the sky was blue and the sun was shining.  Here in the Midwest, that means that there is no tornado close enough that our town would be sending out a warning, therefore it’s just a test.  I’m sorry I couldn’t explain it better to you at the time, it’s just that, having grown up here, that knowledge is in my bones and I needed to dig it up to get it to my conscious brain.  

YOU: I don’t know why this one took me so long, but I do know that it’s my own shame that’s kept me from finally telling you: you did nothing wrong.  I was slow in replying to your letter because it was important to me and I wanted to devote time to it, so I kept putting it off till ‘the right time.’ Then you texted me and I finally replied, but you never replied back and never contacted me again and I worry that you didn’t believe what I said.  I was wrong to wait so long; I should have sat down within days after I got your letter, even if I did need the time to process it.  I didn’t need to process the fact that I love you and you did nothing wrong, and now it’s been so long that I can’t bring myself to tell you, even though you deserve to know that you’re perfect and beautiful and I love you.

Aaaand I just copy and pasted that last one into a message to her, so here’s hoping I said it right.

[desiboocreations]

ATTENTION ART PAGE FOLLOWERS ************************************* After 8yrs working for the Youth Development, I’ve decided to retire. I’ve decided to take a leap of faith and leave the “9-5 Lifestyle” and pursue my dreams! 🦋 I know this will be one of the most difficult chapters in my life, but it will also be the most rewarding. Expect to see more of me as I cannon ball right into the deep end of my dream art world!!! 🎨 With the plans I have in mind, I’m confident that I can spread so much light with sharing what I love! I’m nervous, but excited! I can do this!!! & you know what? So can you!!! I hope to inspire others to pursue their true interests. Only then will you find ultimate happiness! 🌟 #WishMeLuck #HereGoesEverything #SummerIsHere #HireMe #iLoveYou https://www.instagram.com/p/Byjq7ZVAVBK/?igshid=16in9hu3om8dr

[madjeknotts]

It’s not even June and I’ve already basically filled my calendar just with the basics that are due according to my syllabus. I haven’t even really started figuring out the daily todo list of all the things I need to complete or study every day. This semester is going to be a tough one, but I’m going to make it and I’m going to be fine! But if anyone needs me between today and August 5th I may be slightly out of reach because I’m gonna need to focus. (Also if anyone wants to bring me coffee, tea, anything caffeinated, Study snacks, or extra pens/pencils/school supplies I wouldn’t say no!) Prayers and Good Vibes definitely appreciated!! I just need to remember that at the end of this I will be 3/5 an RN and able to take the LPN test to start working as a nurse! #summersemester #roadtonursingschool #thirdsemsterisatoughone #heregoeseverything https://www.instagram.com/p/ByIgLVkH2br/?igshid=10jhtdwhd32qa

[allthegoodurlnamesaretaken]

I am going to do this. One way or another. #fighting #keepingthefirealive #keepgoing #icandothis #heregoeseverything

[straightenmycrown-blog]

www.straightenmycrown.com Well this started out as a project for seminary and has turned into so much more. Please take time to check out my blog and share it.